the songs you listen to at ages 15-17 will rip holes into your heart when you listen to them again later in life.

(Trying to flirt) if we were in a time loop together I would try to save you every time even if I knew it was futile. I would go insane for you

so fucked up that i have to take care of my body everyday. what if sometimes i feel sad about the maintenance

its so fucking hard to live by yourself in a city with really no friends and I trying so hard to make friends and to keep my head afloat when this depression is crippling and im dying. im dying and he doesn’t care. im dying and he sees me once a week because its almost a chore for him. am I allowing my insecurities to get the best of me or am I romanticizing the way he treats me because I cannot get over myself? 

I’m dying soon