himdae + daehyun getting extremely jealous about himchan being really close with jongup pleeeeeease
Look, I’m rusty as hell and this feels all sorts of discombobulated.
Daehyun grew up without having to share. His brother held that burden, breaking off a piece of whatever he had just to give to Daehyun at his parents' insistence. His brother is one of the most generous people he knows now.
Daehyun memorized the steps to generosity, reluctantly, in a cramped dorm of five other boys with grabby hands, even worse that he wasn’t the youngest anymore. Eating the last of the cereal even though Youngjae hadn’t eaten yet wasn’t sharing, taking up the rest of the hot water while Junhong was fighting sleep to take his shower wasn’t caring, and hogging everyone’s attention was frowned upon, too. He’d end up doing it anyway when he wasn’t being mindful.
He’d remember his mother’s snarky words about other neighborhood kids not knowing how to share with others and how she’d been grateful she raised her children to be kind.
Daehyun still has a lot to learn about sharing these days.
“Can you wait?” Himchan giggles in front of the stove, elbowing Jongup in his side as he keeps stirring his chopsticks in the small pot of noodles.
“Just a taste, hyung,” Jongup’s voice is already delirious with laughter.
Truth is, Daehyun is selfish. Some part of him too spoiled by his family’s generosity and the fact that everything, everything was given to him in the largest chunks and he didn’t have to split his share. Its turned into him wanting to covet Himchan’s time, space, attention, all of it for himself.
“Here, just a taste,” Himchan relents, holding the noodles up to Jongup’s mouth, “and then get out of the kitchen!”
Daehyun takes another swig of his beer and leans on the fridge, trying to keep the jealousy he feels broiling in his chest at bay. His stomach rolls, sick of himself. It’s just Jongup and he wasn’t like this before he and Himchan stumbled onto this thing they’ve got going on.
Those two have always been close. They live together for fucks sake, but Daehyun’s got his wires all crossed.
“Move!” Himchan is yelling, but he’s pulling Jongup in closer, smiling ear to ear like he might just kiss him.
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When they’re done eating they all pile into the living room to watch a shitty movie Youngjae found. With the lights off the city lights shimmer, distracting Daehyun as the movie starts up. Himchan sits on the floor next to him while Youngjae and Jongup fit themselves on the couch behind them.
The couple of beers he’s drank leave him buzzed, warm and kind of brave. Enough to twist his pinky around Himchan’s even though Youngjae and Jongup could surely see it over their shoulders without trying.
Himchan stares at him with low eyes and ruddy cheeks, and then does Daehyun one better by lacing their fingers together as he turns back towards the tv.
Daehyun swears Himchan’s hand trembles in his.
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“What was that for?” Himchan whispers once they make it to his room.
He presses in close, pinning Daehyun to the door, kissing him one, two, three times like he can’t pull away. Daehyun tightens his arms around his neck, bringing him impossibly closer, wants Himchan to feel how hot he is, let their bodies meld together in Himchan’s dark room.
“What was what?”
“You don’t ever—like, let me— you know!” He hisses.
Himchan’s hands feel cool as they slide under his t-shirt, makes goosebumps raise and his nipples hard without much effort. Daehyun has to resist a hysterical giggle at Himchan’s desperate panting and shaky hands, knowing that if the light was on his face would be red as hell, too. All because of him.
“What, don’t ever let you hold my hand in front of other people? In front of Youngjae or Jongup,” he says, petulant.
Himchan’s shoulders pull up, body going rigid, before tucking his face into Daehyun’s neck, right where his pulse is kicking up a storm.
Daehyun tilts his face towards the ceiling, head hitting the wood with a defeated thunk. He’s always held on too tight and wanted too much. Himchan’s going to see him for the spoiled brat he really is.
“That was mine, hyung!” Youngjae yells from his room, a screeching laugh following.
“I get it,” Himchan says after a minute of silence.
Daehyun keeps his eyes on the shadows dancing across the ceiling and swallows, throat so dry it clicks.
“Get what?”
“Jealousy. Like, even though I know it’s hopeless, I still find that little crush you have on Yongguk annoying,” Himchan whispers, smiling as he pulls back to look at Daehyun.
Daehyun almost chokes him.
“I do not—“
“Yeah, just like I don’t have a crush on Jonguppie but you’re still upset. I get it. It’s stupid, we’re stupid, but look at us.”
Daehyun can only make out so much of Himchan’s face in the dark but it’s still hard to look him in the eyes. He’s taking twisted comfort in the fact that Himchan’s felt the same way he has and probably tried to talk himself down from another senseless precipice of possessiveness without much luck.
“It’s not healthy,” Daehyun mumbles.
“Talking about it is, though. It’s best for us both to know that I’m not interested in Jonguppie like that and you don’t have a chance with Yongguk,” Himchan snickers, cupping Daehyun’s face with warm hands.
“Hey!” Daehyun squawks, “If I wanted to I’d have a chance!”
The conversation loses traction as they stumble towards Himchan’s bed, Daehyun’s hands twisted in his shirt and his mouth hungry, wanting to make Himchan his only.

















