once a pogue, always a pogue. ꔫ

"That's probably the logical answer." He tells Sarah and rubs her side, pulling her closer to him. A soft chuckle falls from his lips and he shakes his head. "I could have done without that picture in my head of Rafe drooling." John B teases. "Good, because it's annoying, I'm glad you can drown me out." Shifting the conversation, he smiles wider. "What do you feel like doing today?"

she wraps her arms around him as she leans against him, listening to him. " you were picturing my brother drooling? that's cute john b. " she giggles. " can't be that annoying if you haven't woken me up with it, yet at least. " she says looking up at him. " i wanna do something fun, beach and some surfing?"

"So it's okay for me to be scared, but God forbid you step out of your little bubble." Kie shakes her head and holds back tears. So, it is crazy, that's what she thought. "I - I can't be here. I can't do this." She feels like she's about to scream. "Thanks for calling me crazy." She states before opening the door and walking out. Fuck. That was literally the worst thing ever, well, maybe one of the worst things ever. . . She needs to get out of here so she can breathe again. All she knows is that she's going to the Chateau and she's finding JJ and she's taking whatever weed he has and she's smoking it ASAP. Her nerves are absolutely shot after that confession.

sarah sighed as she looked at her. " i didn't say that you're crazy, i'm saying us being best friends having feelings for one another but i don't mean it in a bad way.." she says as she frowns, watching her walk away. she wants to follow her but she feels maybe she should give her space so she doesn't say the wrong thing yet again. story of sarah's life, always says the wrong thing or just runs away.

This catches her off guard and the turns to look at Sarah. "What feelings, Sarah? You have had plenty of time between when I told you and NOW to tell me if there were any feelings but you DIDN'T." Blinking a few times, she pauses. "What?" Kie feels her stomach drop through the floor, she swears. "I don't know, alright?" Sue her for jumping to conclusions!

" i'm scared kie, okay? i don't want to lose you." she says as she looks at her. " how do i confess i have feelings for you, my best friend? like i feel like this is crazy." she feels her her eyes water as she looks at her, trying to keep her emotions in check.

"And you haven't told me shit, except that I shouldn't be apologizing which honestly? Makes me feel worse about it." Kie puts her hands up. "Oh, it's for sure gonna be weird. You can't promise me that it's not, so I'm just gonna go to work and not think about it. I don't want to think about it again. Don't you get it? I can't just BE here with you after I spilled my guts and you said 'it's okay'. What the HELL does that even mean? It's like saying THANK YOU." Kiara grabs her bag and heads for the door. "I don't know when you'll hear from me, probably not for a while until I'm over this entire situation."

" so do my feelings not matter? " she called out as she watched her head for the door. " you never asked how i felt about it kiara.. are you just assuming cause we have john b in our lives that there isn't a chance i could feel the same?"

Kie is trying her very best not to let how much she's hurting show. "I'm sorry." She tells Sarah, but she's not even sure what she's sorry about. Maybe everything. "I should have never opened my mouth because now shit's gonna be weird." And she doesn't think that she can handle that.

" you don't need to apologize, you were honest and told me how you feel. that's ballsy kie, not a lot of people would do that." she says, looking at her feet. " it's not going to be weird but i hate that you're making up an excuse to leave now. you're just up and leaving."

What does Sarah WANT her to do? Stay here and beg her to love her the same way? Just the thought of that alone makes Kie's stomach churn. She's not begging for anything. "Yeah, I'm gonna leave." She nods her head and fixes her left shoe before looking back at Sarah. "You should want me to leave before I mess things up even more." She shouldn't have told her best friend this secret, but it was eating away at her bones. Now she feels like she's going to crumble anyway.

" fine kiara, then go. " she says as she steps back, crossing her arms as she looks at her best friend. sarah was at a loss for words on how to make it better for the two of them but also on what to say to her. she didn't want her to leave obviously but sarah herself didn't know how she felt and that scared her too.

Please don't go, Sarah says. . . Kie closes her eyes and shakes her head. "I have to, I can't do this to you, or John B. . . Or myself." For that matter. "I'm such an idiot." This part is whispered as she tries not to fully freak out. Getting up, she goes to find her sneakers and pull them on. "I'll see you later, okay?" She gives a half-hearted smile.

she sighs sadly as she looks at her. " so that's it? you confess your feelings and you're gonna leave?" she questions, looking at her as she sees her putting on her shows. " you're not an idiot kiara but i don't want you to leave. " she whispers.

She's an idiot. She's out here spilling her feelings to a girl who is in love with her best friend. "Actually, I really have to go now." Kie sits up and shakes her head. "I just remembered that I have a shift at The Wreck." Before SHE becomes the wreck.

sarah frowns as she notices kiara pulling away, instantly reaching her hand out and placing it on her arm. " kie, please don't go. do you really have to?" she asks as she looks at her.

"I sleep better when I know you're right there." John B says, reaching around her to place his hand on her waist, keeping her close to him. "A little bit of drool is kinda cute." He grins at her. "You don't sore too loud, I'm surprised that you don't punch me in the side when I do it because I wake myself up sometimes. . ."

" i think it's because we're both kind of each other's safe spaces." she says softly as she looked up at him, wrapping a free arm around his neck. " well i mean i could see me drooling and snoring, i think it's in the cameron genes." she giggles as she looks at him. " i sleep like a baby most times, i don't usually wake up in the middle of the night hearing you snoring or anything actually."

The way the sunlight is practically making her hair glow, she looks like what John B imagines a angel to look like. A warm smile appears on his lips as she tells him she slept good. "Good." He nods. "I don't want to steal your line, but it's a good one." There's a smirk not tugging at the edge of his lips. "You look so cute when you sleep, by the way." So peaceful, and he really wants to think that he's part of the reason why.

she rests her head on his shoulder as she sighs happily, looking out to the water. " well i think we sleep pretty well beside each other, can't really ever complain." she giggles. " oh do i? you don't think i snore too loud or drool or any of that crazy stuff?"

How long has she been in love with her? Shit. . . "A couple of months ago I realized it." Kie bites her lower lip, still feeling nervous about spilling her guts like this. "Ye - yeah, I do. Are you changing your mind about being my friend now?"

" kiara, please tell me you're kidding me right now .. you really think i'd stop being your friend about this? i just got you back in my life, nothing's chasing me away now." she says as she looks at her. " talk to me, tell everything you're feeling."

"Good morning." He smiles as Sarah comes up the dock to where he's perched at the edge. "How did you sleep?" John B pats the worn sun-kissed wood beside him as he squints up to the blonde and love of his life.

" good morning handsome. " she smiles as she looks down at him. she moves over to sit beside him, her feet dangling off the dock and over the water in front of them. " i slept good, i had you right there. how'd you sleep love?"

She says that now, but what about in thirty seconds? As soon as the words come out, Kie holds her breath. "Yeah." She nods timidly. "Yeah, like, real love." At least that's what she THINKS it is. She's never been in love before, but she's also never felt this way for anyone before. It's scary. "I love you, Sarah. . ."

" how long?" she asks as she looks over at her. she has so many questions but she also wants to know everything kiara is willing to tell her. " you actually love me?" she questions, not being able to take the smile away from her face.

"A thousand percent, Sare. . ." She lets out a soft sigh. "Please don't hate me." Kie says softly before she sits up straighter. "I think I have feelings for you, more than what a friend should have." As she speaks, her cheeks become a deeper pink with blush. "I think I'm in love with you." The words slip out and she prepares for the worst.

" i could never hate you, ever." she says softly as she looks at her. she listens to kiara talk as she hears her confession, she was shocked a little but wasn't that taken back. " you think you do?" she asks. " you're in love with me? like real love kie?"