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Watching hyunjin crying, jeongin crying, changbin crying... chan crying. Watching my boys falling down in tears today made me feel connected to them. Watching them delivering all the stress, frustation, anger, happiness, adrenaline, all in one moment really shocked me. Let me tell you that these guys are not different from us. These guys are actually just like us. Why? ‘Cause I’ve been wondering about their lives as idols all this time and how they have to learn how to cope with the flow called “life”, just exactly how I have to do it too. Three months ago I started the master degree after finishing my mayor in Technology Information Engineering and I’m only 22 years old. And I decided to take the master because I thought it was a good opportunity for me. It was kind of a dream but I also took it because I thought I was prepared mentally and physically for whatever it was going to be. And also because my major wasn’t a easy thing to get too so I thought I was used to be under the pression of exams, homework and the level of dedication it demands. But let me tell you that I wasn’t. I wasn’t prepared not because I wasn’t intelligent or capable of doing certain things, no. I wasn’t prepared because WE ARE NEVER PREPARED FOR THE FUTURE. We will never know what the future holds. And it doesn’t mean that we will not be capable of holding it. It means that whaetever it is... we’re gonna fall down and then we’re gonna get up and keep wallking. Now, I’m destroyed. I’m frustated, angry, stressed and all because I took a decision. And taking a decision means taking all the consequences of it so that’s what stray kids are doing it right now. They took the decision of being musicians. So they’re also taking the consequences of it. But hear me out. This fact doesn’t mean that they should be suffering. They shouldn’t just like I shouldn’t be suffering too and just like you shouldn’t be suffering. We should be happy, we should be feeling good about ourselves, we should be proud of ourselves but sadly... this world doesn’t teach us how to feel like this. This world just put more pressure on our backs and tell us that we should be doing better. We should be better... but I swear we’re trying. I swear we’re fighting and this fact should be enough to feel okay. And if you’re reading this I swear it’s okay and I feel you. Stray Kids feel you. Just keep doing whatever you want at your own pace. Go and tell another person that you feel that is going through the same that is OKAY. Let’s share our love. Let’s spread our desire to keep living and stop to take a breath whenever you need it. Stray Kids need you. And they need you alive just like STAY needs them too. Let’s keep supporting these amazing angels and make sure to let them know that you love them every day just by staying alive. I know it’s hard but we’re all here to hold you. STAY! KEEP BREATHING AND LET’S MAKE STRAY KIDS STAY!!!!