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𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜: 𝚘𝚝𝚠!𝚖𝚒𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚎𝚕 𝚓𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚜𝚘𝚗 ❤︎ 𝚋𝚕𝚊𝚌𝚔!𝚏𝚎𝚖!𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 + 𝚓𝚎𝚛𝚖𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚍
𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜: 𝚏𝚕𝚞𝚏𝚏, 𝚜𝚏𝚠, 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚛𝚎𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚙
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𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊 𝚜𝚎𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚝 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚖𝚒𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚎𝚕… 𝚊 𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚢 𝚒𝚖𝚙𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚝, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚜 𝚘𝚞𝚝, 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚖 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚌𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎.
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you and michael were basically two peas in a pod.
you two met as kids when he was a few years being part of The Jackson 5. It wasn’t often you got to hangout as children, but when it happened, it was full of laughter, love, and aching cheeks from smiling too hard.
somehow, you managed to get invited to rehearsal, only a few, but they were certainly fun to watch michael and his brother dance and sing.
over the years, michael and you have grown closer than ever, young adults and so much life ahead of you. you decided to pursue one of your favorite hobbies as a job whilst michael continued to sing his heart out. that’s what you admired about him. not only do you adore his character, how sweet he is, but also how talented he is. to be lucky enough to be friends with someone with such an angelic voice was out of this world. simply being around him made your heart feel full because he was just so full of life even when he was doing something as mundane as staring off into the blue.
although, feelings seemed to kick in over the years and you felt weirdly guilty. michael is your best friend, your peanut butter to your jam, it felt awfully bad to suddenly gain feelings on you were sure would not like you back. sometimes, you spent quite a while in your bedroom pacing around and overthinking of what could happen if michael found out about your secret. you couldn’t let him find out about your secret, you thought it would just ruin the friendship entirely and you would never contact each other again.
fortunately, your parents called you down for dinner before you could cry from overthinking too much at the time.
today was calm and quiet, the jackson’s managing to get a break for once and you took advantage of their free time. you decided to stroll over to hayvenhurst and the first person you search for is michael of course.
but instead, you bump into jermaine, who seemed ready to go out.
a quiet “oof” leaves you as you two accidentally ram into each other.
“woah there, watch where you goin’” jermaine chuckles softly as he helps you catch your balance before his hands smoothly fall back to his sides.
you giggle lightly as you brush yourself off before taking a good look at his neat outfit.
“you look awfully put together, where are you headin’ to?” one of your eyebrows arch up in curiosity as you rest a hand on your hip.
“mmm… meeting someone.” jermaine shrugs non-chalantly, clearly not planning to give out whatever secret he has.
“what about you?” he then says back as a knowing smirk begins to form on his face. “you were running a marathon wanting to meet…” he pauses for dramatic effect, “michael.”
“you seem pretty excited to see him today.” jermain then adds as he wiggles his eyebrows playfully.
you feel warmth rush to your cheeks and you forgot how to think for a second. “uhm,” you hesitated and jermaine lets out a chuckle of amusement.
jermaine leans in to lightly nudge his elbow with your shoulder before speaking again, “you make it so obvious that you have a crush on him.” he says as he reaches down to grab his shoes.
“I do not!” you defend yourself as you cross your arms over your chest with a frown of denial on your face. “we’re nothing romantic, only best friends, that’s it.”
“sounds like you’re trying to convince yourself instead of me.” jermaine teases again before standing up straight.
“admit it, you like him at least a little.” he encourages, his expression softening just slightly.
you hesitate again. you knew jermaine caught on and there was no way in denying it right in front of him. sighing in defeat, you give in.
“you better tell nobody…” you warn with a glare before finally admitting it to jermaine, “and yes, I do like michael… a lot…” with your confession jermaine seems to smile wider and pat your shoulder before walking towards the front door.
just as you glance to your right, you find michael eavesdropping at your conversation with jermaine. he quickly vanishes when he realizes you caught him peeking. your heart immediately drops and an unsettling feeling sets upon you. jermaine’s voice blurs into the background as you spiral into your thoughts.
michael must have heard everything.
he must have heard your little secret that jermaine made you say out loud! jermaine definitely knew what he was doing and you were sure your friendship was over.
you didn’t even say goodbye to jermaine before you rushed over to michael, not finding where he last was. panic begins to settle in your chest but you quickly calm yourself down. you’ll just act like you literally didn’t confess your feelings whilst he was watching you the entire time. a shaky exhale leaves you before you decide to head out to the back, where you fortunately find michael sitting on the edge of the fountain and talking to louie. your worried expression softens slightly at the sight, he was always so gentle with animals, even when louie was ignoring him.
you didn’t want to talk to him after that embarrassing incident, but you came all the way here to see is pretty face.
“mikey…” you call out in that soft tone as you walk up behind him.
michael looks over his shoulder and at your face with that familiar, gentle smile. god, you loved that smile, so sweet, so bright, you could stare at his face in general all day like a lovesick fool.
you smile back as you give a quick scratch behind louie’s ears before settling down next to michael. you looked at him before looking down at your shoes. when you were like this, you could tell him anything and he would find someway to comfort you. but after you were sure he heard you say how you truly felt about him, it was hard to get it out.
“listen…” you reluctantly begin, feeling your chest tighten with that guilt again, “I know you heard what I said earlier, and it’s true, I do like you like that, but…” a heavy sigh escapes, “but, if you don’t feel the same way, then I understand why. I just… I had to say something someday…”
you finish off with sweaty palms and slightly chapped lips from biting on it from your nervousness.
michael’s eyes grew wider than they already are and a deep red crawled up his dark skin as he processed everything you said. his reaction made you panic and you wonder if you should just dig your own grave already.
“what?” he finally spoke, “I never heard what you and jermaine talked about…”
michael’s words now really made you want to dig your grave deep. your entire face feels like it’s on fire, worse than it usually feels when you’re flustered or embarrassed. your heart beats so fast you swore it was about to pop right out of your chest. you look at louie as if an animal could speak and help you before glancing back at michael. you don’t know what to do, now you just embarrassed yourself and you don’t know if you just ruined everything.
michael catches onto your realization immediately. he doesn’t seem disturbed or weirded out… just surprised. the silence was too loud and one of you had to say something, and michael does first.
“you thought I heard everything, huh?” he giggles softly despite his face being equally as flushed as yours. his expression remains soft yet it seems tender, like he was admiring you. he stares at your face for a moment, which was still shocked, though he can’t blame you when you accidentally give yourself second-hand embarrassment.
michael lets out another soft laugh as looks at louie. “relax, your face is gonna get stuck like that.”
you manage to fix your face and quickly look away while muttering a, “sorry, it’s probably best that I leave.”
michael doesn’t let you. his hand shoots out and grabs yours with such care it makes your heart flutter. “I didn’t even get to say anything yet.” he says softly as he gently tugs you back down to sit with him again.
he looks at you again, admiring your side profile for a while before realizing he was staring again. michael wasn’t great with romantic feelings, so this was just as awkward for him as it was to you, but seeing you begin to shutdown from him made his heart ache in a way he couldn’t let happen.
“well, I have a little secret too.” he hums, not letting go of your hand. his dark eyes drift down to look at his hand overlapping yours, his thumb giving an occasional, subtle caress on your knuckles.
that shocked look appears back on your face again and everything you were so worried about just seemed not to ever exist anymore.
“what? really? you like-like me?” your eyes narrow in slight suspicion, not wanting to get your hopes up too quick.
“yes, I like-like you.” michael confirms with a light nod as he meets your gaze. “I was actually planning to tell you for a very long time now, but gosh, I couldn’t seem to get it out, even when I practiced in the mirror.” he chuckles nervously as his other hand leaves louie’s leash to shyly rub the back of his neck.
“you practiced in the mirror?” you snorted as the tension from your body slowly eases out now that you knew you weren’t the only one feeling this way. “I can’t speak much, I wrote about you in my diary...” you admit with a shy smile spreading across your face and michael nudges your shoulder with his.
“no wonder you went ballistic when I touched it!” he exaggerates with a cackle that makes you giggle and relax further.
a moment of silence settles in but it feels less tense and more comfortable this time. the two of you stare at each other’s face for a few seconds before michael finally makes a move. he plants the lightest, sweetest kiss on your lips. no pressure or roughness, just a gentle and passionate peck before he pulled back with rosier cheeks than earlier. your heart skips a beat or two as you briefly lean into the kiss before pulling back with a sparkle in your eyes. you decided to ask the question, you had to or else this was just nothing.
“does this mean…?” you question trails off and michael interrupts.
“yes, it means what you think it means.”
you felt like the luckiest girl in the world. you got to call michael your boyfriend. a boyfriend to kiss, a boyfriend to cuddle, a boyfriend to talk about everything to. a boyfriend to do everything with, and it was with your best friend.
you bite down on your bottom lip as you lean in, wanting another kiss. both of your lips meet and michael scoots closer to you, his hands hesitant but gentle as he carefully pulled you in by your waist. the kiss was longer this time but it was still just as sweet as you two took in the taste and warmth of each other. It was intense, but not an overwhelming type of intense, more like it made your chest warm and your breath heavy in the best way possible.
you wanted more, you couldn’t pull back, not when michael tasted as sweet as he is.
“looks like the little secret it out.” jermaine’s voice in the background break through the sweet intimacy between you and michael, and you almost bite his lip out of surprise. now he definitely heard everything. you and michael look at jermaine before looking back at each other and breaking out in a laugh. jermaine’s chuckle joins in and he turns to head back into the house.
“don’t worry, my mouth is shut.” he assures and michael looks back at you.
he leans in to peck the tip of your nose as he whispers, “my little secret.” michael hums softly.
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