How do i interpret my day 3...? Lonely...? Well our whole day evolve in doing our laundry... but the lonely part to me is when she told me she needs to go somewhere, or let say a meeting... hmmmm she ask for my permission, i just ask her back, "if i say I don't want u to go, would you do it..?" She just laugh at me... i ask her "can i come with u?" Unfortunately she didn't agree... so i just left at home... waiting for her is kind of to long, lonely in my inside, and because I'm not chatting on her so I don't have any idea of her whereabouts... being alone in my bed and don't know what's happening to her makes me crazy in sadness... the thing is I've been waiting for her and I don't plan to eat dinner... but sad to say when she arrive, she looks exhausted, and i ask her if she ate already and she said yes, so i just decide to go out and meet my friend, which is i thought she will at least say can i come with you or i will come with you because you haven't eating yet, but instead she just say "okei, be careful and i will take a rest" my heart felt so sad ... she asked me, "are u okei?, i just answer "yeah im fine" I can't say anything because she always comes out with a word that "stop the drama, your to OA, etc etc..." and she will get piss of to me... so i will just always say im fine, im okei... no drama, just inside of my self only... thank god to my friend we ate outside and I drink... unfortunately i really get drunk ended up totally in mess when i got home... at least I don't remember after i vomit... she just really get pissed of to me according to her... i love her so much, she's my only love, my lifetime, waiting for her until last is what I'm planning to do... I can't love other anymore...