Building separatism

If women were submissive there would be no need for violence. But somehow extreme effort to keep them isolated, scared, cornered and financially cut off is required to keep them obedient, and even then it's temporary. Threats, intimidation, blackmail and violence need to be used perpetually to keep women in that terrified, controlled state. That doesn't sound very natural, you could control anyone at a gunpoint.

It also seems than when free of violence, religion and males, women go and invest in their own lives. They prioritize their own happiness, pleasure and life experience. Doesn't sound like someone who needs their agency removed.

I mostly watch women's content online, and in the last two years I've felt a noticeable shift in the collective opinions about m*n. I think women have finally come to a point where the anecdotes, stories from their lives and their friend's lives and all of the reddit women and all the women online in general, have shifted their view of m*n into 'dangerours, liar, potentially violent, misogynistic, exploitative, and most of all, cringe'. Which is the reflection of reality, m*n have proven to be exactly that!

I can't say if it's radical feminism, or if enough women finally shared what they've been put through, for all women to start internalizing this and acting accordingly. I'm seeing women actively discouraging other women from getting a boyfriend or a husband, warning them viscerally against getting pregnant and telling absolute horror stories about what will become out of their life. I'm seeing videos of adult women openly talking to teenagers, explaining why adult m*n are not an ideal match for them, why they're being rejected by all women their own age. I'm seeing women warning other women against onlyfans, giving them red flags for narcissists and sociopaths, pointing out all vulnerabilities of being a 'stay-at-home' wife and encouraging young women to speak up and fight for their own careers, money, property.

There was an article that made me laugh, named 'Is having a boyfriend cringe now?', which described women seeking online influence actively hiding their boyfriends from the public because they knew they would lose respect and popularity with their female audience knew they were involved. M*n have gathered enough ill will with the women that even being in contact with one is seen as a lack of self respect.

I haven't seen a lot of how m*n have reacted to this, other than playing the victim in the situation and acting like women are bullying them, but there's nothing they can do if the public opinion of what is reality is already set and confirmed by millions of women. The gaslighting won't work if we have backup!

Lately I've even seen women openly refusing to be blackmailed by their children, and letting their ex-husbands take the child if it means she gets peace from all the abuse. I feel awful for the children (which husbands don't even want in most cases) but it is a powerful blow back to all the m*n attempting this, are they going to keep attempting it if it repeatedly doesn't work, and women just walk away? I think if m*n are aware they're not gaining any power by threatening to take the kids, they're going to stop trying it.

I feel like we're doing exactly what we'd set up to do, raising consciousness, giving other women the 'heads up' for having any male in their lives, and opening their eyes to the social injustices and power imbalance we're forced to live in. Once every woman is aware of this, it becomes much harder for m*n to get their way, to trap or enslave them. They are forced to go for younger and younger women who still want male attention, but young women are all on the internet now, and if they keep seeing women as a collective calling older m*n cringe and disgusting, they will learn it's a source of disgust, not approval.

People have told me I'm being crazy because I don't even have savings and my plans for survival are very vague from this point on, but I know I'm doing well, and am perfectly competent. Come on now. I have a house.

I visited the 'old things market' to get myself some tools I need, here's what I got!

A hammer with the nail-removing part, a hand saw, and a sickle! I removed the rust from the hand saw and the hammer, but I didn't touch the sickle because it was incredibly sharp. The guy selling it to me was concerned I was going to cut myself with it (and I almost did), so before handling it, I watched 5 videos of 'how to use a sickle'. I don't feel confident I won't cut myself.

I got it because I intend to grow wheat and other cereal crops, but I realized immediately I can cut grass with this. I don't need to get a scythe, I can just grab this thing and go to town. The plant lady told me I got the wrong hand saw, because what I need it for is cutting old tree branches on my property, and this is apparently for wooden boards? Oops. But it's better to have something than nothing and I got it for 2 euros. I've never touched a hand saw before or knew what kind I need, I just went snooping on the market for stuff. The hammer I need for taking out thousands of nails from the boards I have on my property, to make my life slightly safer. I stepped on a nail pretty bad last week, it's healing okay but I'm going to visit my doctor about it as well.

I miss my house! Every day I wake up in the city I'm like, wow this is truly unbearable. Neighbours are noisy and yelling, housemates are slamming doors and leaving the front door unlocked, I have 2 meters of living space and everything stinks of mold. My laundry won't dry. I have to travel 25 minutes to see my garden. No idea how I lived like this.

So the walls in my house have a lot of damaged areas, some where the plaster fell off on its own, and some where the ex owners started hammering it down and then never came back to fix it. I can see the big areas of wall separating and falling apart from the bricks. When I knock on the walls, it feels hollow, disconnected. So that's not great.

For now I only want to fix the holes in the plaster, and I've started some experimenting with a mix of clay and the powder created by the rubble on the floor. I've managed to cover a damaged area with a rough mix, and after it dried, smoothed it out with clay alone to create new plaster. This wasn't perfectly even or smooth, but I don't have a problem with that, I'm partial to enrichment of bumpy clay walls.

Since I've worked with clay before, I know it shrinks with drying, so it was going to crack in the drying process. I waited for it to happen, and then smoothed it out with some water. The result was nice! When I tried knocking on the repaired part, it wasn't hollow, it was proper firm wall-knocking sound.

Then I wondered, is it really that easy, can I just fix my walls with just my hands, using clay and remains of the plaster, because at this point it very much feelt so. Encouraged by my success, I continued repairing the more damaged areas in the same way:

I know this looks a bit ugly, and I do have some wall paint, so after this dries I'll try and cover it up. I feel like wall paint is a bit toxic and smells bad so it's a shame to put it over the nice smelling, perfectly healthy and natural clay. Would it be hostile to human guests if I just covered all my walls in clay and then refused to paint them? Like hello welcome to my house, I covered the walls in mud, I swear I'm normal. I just think it smells nice and feels nice to touch. We're not underground and I'm not a zombie.

This is a great closet; it has shelving, it has some hanging space for coats, it's good in size. I can keep my every-day clothing in there and maybe adjust it a bit for the seasons, I love it. 10/10. It doesn't have a functional handle but that's not its fault.

Shelves! This is the shelving space I've been dreaming of. I can keep my linens in here, my extra blankets, my yarn and craft supplies, big sweaters, paintings, there's no end to things that could fit in there. 11/10 I love shelving space so much. I was confused by the hanging stick up there, like what could be so tiny you would hang it above the first shelf? Then I realized it was there so you could, if you liked to, remove the shelves and use it as a hanging closet. I will not be doing that but I like that there's options. Also wish I knew where the bottom shelf was, I want more shelves.

3/10. Only one shelf and too high up. Can be used for winter coats and maybe some shoes. No variety, no fun, this is a one-use closet. Oh and I forgot that I put jesus in there. I threw it in there yelling 'see how you like being in the closet!' and closed the door. I thought I was hilarious.

If you were reading my latest posts, you know I purchased an abandoned house I intend to live in, and it doesn't have a kitchen, or a bathroom. So you might wonder, where do I go for bathroom stuff?

Let's start with the easy stuff, showering! I've already gotten used to not using a real shower. For a year now, I've been heating some water, putting it in a bucket and washing with that, I love it. However I couldn't really do it in the house, as there is no drain, floors would get wet and dirty. And outside, well. Illegal.

I looked around and realized I can do it in the shed. I'm sheltered from view, and the floor is ground. The water will evaporate. Showering in the shed felt amazing! You basically get completely naked in what feels like outdoors and then pour a lot of water on yourself, it's freeing, refreshing, feels like doing something crazy even though it's normal. The well water is freezing cold so it feels incredible in the heat. I'm happy with that solution for the summer, will think of something in the winter.

The property has a field toilet, and before you think that's weird and outdated, the neighbours also use a field toilet. So it's normal here. It is however, very old, and I just peeked in it once. It didn't look great, the sitting place was a styrofoam board with a hole in it. I decided not to use it.

My plan for a toilet was to build up a compost toilet, I had already picked a location, I'm just waiting to gather up enough bricks to put together a composting area protected from the animals. I also need to gather enough leaves and hay to make it into a proper composting pile; this also takes care of the smell. I've been reading 'the humanure handbook' and if what it says is true, composting can eradicate any pathogen and bacteria given enough time, and create the perfect fertilizer for the garden. I'm excited to try it.

The neighbours actually asked me about this, and I suggested the term 'composting toilet' to them, assuming they've never heard of it, but to my surprise, they told me they actually use all of the stuff from their field toilet for garden fertilizer. With one catch; they don't compost it first. They just gather the stuff in the fall and dig it into the soil. From what I've read that's not the ideal way to use it, because there's still going to be pathogens and bacteria harmful to humans, but it's also how they do it in some areas in asia, and it's kind of okay? In the way that there's more chances for infections, but most people do just fine. The neighbours were very proud of this and bragged about how beautiful their garden gets after getting so much nitrogen.