Baggage Claim

very grateful but fucking depressed

forgiving those but disregarding them

being in love but not wanting it

bored of mundaneness but exhausted

Miles Carter

If you decide to love someone

Surrender you heart

Remove the guards and relinquish their shields

You need to feel this thoroughly

Love was never meant to be safe or measured so

Love irrationally

Jump off a cliff without considering consequence

Love Specifically

Pay attention to the smaller details of the bigger picture

Love unconditionally

Because there will be days when you don't like her, but the love must remain

And in the event that love breaks you

Let it Break

Do not close yourself off, or shut yourself down

Your heart will be shaped and reshaped

But in the end

I will still be yours

As humans we are bless with the skill of adaption

It's kept us here for eons

Rainer Maria Rilke

God speaks to each of us as he makes us,

then walks with us silently out of the night.

These are the words we dimly hear:

You, sent out beyond your recall,

go to the limits of your longing.

Embody me.

Flare up like a flame

and make big shadows I can move in.

Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.

Just keep going. No feeling is final.

Don’t let yourself lose me.

Nearby is the country they call life.

You will know it by its seriousness.

Give me your hand.

Rainer Maria Rilke

Quiet friend who has come so far,

feel how your breathing makes more space around you.

Let this darkness be a bell tower

and you the bell. As you ring,

what batters you becomes your strength.

Move back and forth into the change.

What is it like, such intensity of pain?

If the drink is bitter, turn yourself to wine.

In this uncontainable night,

be the mystery at the crossroads of your senses,

the meaning discovered there.

And if the world has ceased to hear you,

say to the silent earth: I flow.

To the rushing water, speak: I am.

come down from heaven,

and do not return to it

without watering the earth

and making it bud and flourish,

so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,

so is my word that goes out from my mouth:

It will not return to me empty,

but will accomplish what I desire

and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

You will go out in joy

and be led forth in peace;

the mountains and hills

will burst into song before you,

and all the trees of the field

will clap their hands.

Instead of the thornbush will grow the juniper,

and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.

This will be for the Lord’s renown,

for an everlasting sign,

that will endure forever.”

- thank you for taking the time to come and talk to me. let me know if you have other questions that i can answer to clarify. :)

- goodnight. sleep well.

Thursday

- good morning :) hope you slept well.

- good luck today in the GVU Career Fair. I’m praying for you!! you got this!!

- how did the meetings go? how do you feel?

- i miss you.

- i am learning this week about my dependence of God. I am nothing with Him. I am completely lost with God. I learned that the moment I distract myself (thinking that I can do it myself), the enemy uses my vulnerabilities and weaknesses to hurt and destroy what is precious to me. (my relationship w/ God, you, my family, my mental health...) I am learning to cling unto God— more and more. What is God teaching you today?

Friday

- happy friday :)) i hope classes go well.

- can we try one more time? one last time?

i waved the sun goodbye

just in case everyone forgot to greet him

just in case we don't every get to see him again

just in case he decides to leave

and never come back

i waved goodbye

I saw a girl smirk at her screen she's getting the butterflies

I saw a man sigh at his sreen his shoulders press him down

I saw you glance at at his screen I wasn't relevant to pause you now

floating⁣ around to see if i could sneak out⁣ of the possibility of getting caught⁣

floating ⁣ over to see if i could land⁣ without needing to make a force land⁣

floating ⁣ in between the fine line⁣ of yes and no⁣