Dreaming of Baby

Needed a change and the Mr. requested blue...I threw in some purple just to liven things up a bit (as if bright blue wasn't a big enough statement) and I have to say I'm loving it so far!!

Some days I feel like I got locked out of the episode where Oprah gives away pregnancies! "You get to be pregnant, you get to be pregnant, everybody gets to be pregnant! Except you, you don't get to be pregnant." Totally had a dream the other night that this happened, woke up all sorts of sad but at the same time I'm super stoked for all the ladies I follow that are finally getting their BFPs!!

Here is to hoping that 2016 will bring us the possibility of not having to spend another holiday season explaining to everyone why we don’t have children or why I’m not pregnant yet, and to all the other TTC’ers out there I’m hoping the same thing for you too. Much love and baby dust to all!

So I'm coming up on what should be the end of my cycle and in the next few days I should either get a very unwelcome visit from AF or get my long awaited BFP and the last few days/week have been very odd. I have had the worst breast pain I've ever felt in my entire life...everything hurts, wearing a bra, not wearing a bra, walking, laying down, speed bumps, sitting, sleeping...no matter what I do the girls are in massive pain (I'm hoping this is a good sign) that has been going on for damn near two weeks!! Add to that 3 nights this week of extremely odd dreams, including a dream that continued for two nights where P and I were scientists trying to invent glow in the dark cheese and then being on the run from the government for creation of said cheese full of terrible puns... I have heard that pregnancy can give you the weirdest dreams so I'm also hoping this is a sign...keeping my fingers crossed over the next few days...

The day started off with a little early morning catch and release fishing, had a pretty awesomely yummy lunch with my sweetie, watched a few movies and then had dinner and watched some Game of Thrones while cuddling on the couch with P and the puppies. It been amazing to have a fairly relaxing stress free day all while trying not to think about being in the 2WW, with the massively painful breasts, and kind of being an awful bitch the last few days I just have this terrible feeling that we missed this cycle too so today I decided that I wasn't gonna let it get to me and I would enjoy my day!!

So it CD 25 and I have no idea if I ovulated this cycle...work has been crazy stressful this last week and when I hadn't gotten a positive OPK by day 21 I kinda forgot to keep testing. I know that sounds terrible but working erratic hours I forgot to keep going...well maybe next cycle will be different if the BDing didn't work this time around. On the other hand while I'm in the 2ww (at least I think I am) I've started having symptoms and of course I'm getting my hopes up for no reason...the twinges in my belly, the nausea the heartburn, and the sore boobs are not necessarily signs that I'm pregnant...I think if I just keep telling myself that I might believe it at some point!! Anyway I'm just rambling so now I think I'll go cuddle with P and try to forget the day...baby dust to all 🍼✨👶

Needed a mid cycle pick me up and last nights at home spa like pedicure seemed to do the trick just fine!! Feeling amazing and beautiful today!! Have a wonderful day ladies!! Baby dust to all!! P.s: sorry about the random foot pic but was feeling particularly proud of my nail design skills!! :)

Having one of those days...it's cd 17 and ovulation still hasn't happened (according to my OPK's) and I'm unbelievably frustrated...I know there is still a chance that I will ovulate this cycle but my hateful brain keeps telling me that I have failed once again... I really don't think it helps that I had a really close friend practically yell at me last night "you don't even know if you're infertile" after sharing something I saw on here with her. I tried to just brush it off and let it go but it's been eating at me all day. Just because I haven't had a test doesn't mean I don't know...how else would you explain almost 7 years of ttc and unprotected sex and no baby...sounds like infertility to me. My gyno even agreed with me that it's abnormal and told me that if I wasn't pregnant by May (this was in November) that we could start Clomid. I just hate this waiting and trying and waiting and trying!! I'm trying to stay positive and will continue baby dancing (that's the upside I suppose) until I either get my BFP or AF rears her ugly unwelcome head....

Okay girls after taking my 7th OPT this afternoon and it coming up negative again I’m wondering if maybe the brand I’m using is the problem (I’m like 70% sure that I ovulated yesterday) so I’m wanting to know what brand you use and if you find the results to be pretty accurate.

Well I think that’s it for now…must go inside before I get completely eaten alive by Mosquitos….oh Texas spring how cruel you are!!