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Women of Babalon

We, each of us, have a real Holy Guardian Angel, or Kia, which is our power of consciousness, magic, and genius. We also have a regrettable capacity to become obsessed with the mere products of our genius, mistaking them for the genius itself. These obsessional side effects have a genetic name, Choronzon, or perhaps the demons Choronzon, for its name is multiple. To worship these creations is to imprison oneself in madness and to invoke eventual disaster. Belief in a god or belief in one’s ego are the same thing. Every man is already his own diseased vision of God. Both the religious maniac and the black magician acquire a certain charisma and mission from the irrespective obsessions, but ultimately their quest is futile, for they cannot get beyond their own inflated fears and desires to the real thing — the anonymous and formless, yet fantastic, power source within themselves. That we are conscious, magical, and creative is the most mysterious and incredible thing in the universe. Any god or higher self we can imagine is necessarily less amazing than what we ourselves actually are, for it is merely one of our own creations. Myself, I am unwilling to give any sensible name, attribute, or glyph to the infinite mystery within the core of my consciousness and behind the illusion of the universe. It has been wisely said that the Absolute is either ineffable or it is less than us. To invoke the real Holy Guardian Angel (or Kia) is a paradoxically difficult task. As it has no form, there is no way to get an imaginative grip on it. It cannot be willed or perceived, for it is, itself, the root of will and perception. If one invokes the Holy Guardian Angel with the general expectation of various signs and manifestations, then one’s genius and magical capacities will usually provide these if enough gnosis is employed. Alternatively, if one enters an exalted state in an unplanned way, then the free belief generated will usually attach itself to any incipient mystical ideas one may have. In both cases one has missed the boat. Let me repeat my startlingly simple message. The real Holy Guardian Angel is just the force of consciousness, magic, and genius itself —nothing more. This cannot manifest in a vacuum; it is always expressed in some form, but its expressions are not the thing itself. There are perhaps only two things one can do to invoke the real HGA or Kia. Firstly, the ego can be put in its place by deliberately seeking union with any thing one has rejected. Secondly, the hidden god force Kia can be felt as the root of all acts of consciousness, magic, and genius by performing as diverse and extensive a series of these acts as possible. Invoke often, as the oracle said. And banish Choronzon whenever it manifests.