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Horrorcosmium

A new xenogender (mogai) influenced by cosmic horror, coined by yours truly.

“The skies are haunted by that which it were madness to know; and strange abominations pass evermore between earth and moon and athwart the galaxies. Unnamable things have come to us in alien horror and will come again.” ― Clark Ashton Smith

[ BEGIN IMAGE ID: A pride flag for the xenogender horrorcosmium. It has eleven circular stripes, half of which being dark, the rest of which being a gradient from dark purple to dark blue to bright teal. Overlaid is a white image of an eye flanked by two tentacles. A version without this overlaid image follows with the same circular stripes. The last image is a simplified, horizontal seven stripe version. END IMAGE ID. ]

Definition: Horrorcosmium (adj. horrorcosmic) is a xenogender influenced by or related to the genre of cosmic horror. It can not be completely described, as it has no recognizable geometry/shape. It is characterized by its difficulty to be fully known, its contents often inducing dread and confusion in those who struggle to understand it. This cosmic void induces this dread as it often causes people to look into their inner selves to attempt understanding.

sleep. your body needs to rest. the average panic attack takes as much energy as running a half-marathon. let yourself rest. take a 20 minute nap. any longer and you’ll hit your REM cycle, and you’ll wake up worse off. after, you’ll feel so much better.

clean something. literally anything. a plate, a drawer, the whole mf bathroom. it doesn’t matter how much or how little. it’ll make you feel more in control, and it’ll make your surroundings more appropriate for recovery.

get some fresh air. even just opening your window for a few hours will help. if you feel up to it, take a walk. take your dog. pick some flowers. cloudgaze. even just sit in your garden for a bit. your body will thrive off of non-stale air. 

eat and drink. I know for some people, myself included, this is Hard. it’s alright if all you can manage is a granola bar, or some cereal. anything is progress and will fuel your body. drink water if you can, but anything apart from alcohol will hydrate you.

take a shower. I have clinical depression. have done since I was 12. I know how hard it is to take a shower. but it fucking helps. if you don’t do anything else off this list, do this. it’ll help more than you know.

talk to someone. I can’t stress this enough. humans are social creatures! we crave interaction. even the most introverted introvert needs to talk to someone. call your mom. text a buddy. skype your brother. chat to your local cashier. anything !! you’ll feel less alone, and hopefully get some good serotontitty flowing.

do something fun! same as above, it’ll make u feel so much bette, and provide a distraction. some good options are writing, drawing, watching a movie, dancing - anything you enjoy!

be kind to yourself. it’s okay if you relapsed, or if you had a bad day, or anything else. treat yourself gently. you wouldn’t so harsh to a friend in your situation. it’s gonna be okay.

were you a Webkinz or Neopets kid

were you an LPS collector or Pokemon card kid

What if laughter rings out to Morrigan’s tent because the Warden borrowed The Rose of Orlais from Wynne and they and Zevran take turns reading it aloud with the most exaggerated accents, making the already cheesy romance novel even more hilarious?

Or what if it’s the Warden’s first attempt at speaking Antivan that’s so funny, and their saying “flesh” instead of “chair” or something combined with the look they give Zevran when he first starts snickering only makes him laugh in a way he hasn’t in years, and the Warden can’t help but give in and chuckle too?

What if it’s the sounds of boots scuffling against the earth and knives flying through the air, sometimes mixed with the satisfactory thud of hitting a target, because they’ve stayed up late practicing together? If the Warden is a mage, Zevran could be teaching them an alternative method of combat for when their mana runs out.

When your crazy EX wants you back💕

“ to hold you close until we must both part. ♡ ”