âYou could have died. If the cut were a little deeper, you would have died.â
He is so frantic and angry at her and itâs because he knows how close she was to death and the realization that he would have to live in a world without her in shakes him deeply.Â
âDid you think about what itâs like to live with a scar on your body?â
The mere thought that Hae Soo wilingly harmed and mutilated herself makes So utterly livid, because now sheâs sentenced herself to a life of stigma, a life heâs been living for 15 years now, and thatâs something Wang So doesnât want for her. Fate really does work in strange ways - on one hand itâs driving them to each other because when HS gives herself the scar she unwittingly gives herself and So the chance to be lovers in the future. However, on the other, that same fate is working against them because that very scar (a scar everyone in the Palace knows about) and her familyâs ruin (the solution So suggested to his father) are the very reasons he wonât be able to marry her and make her his queen.Â
âI just couldnât do it. No one can save me but myself. Thatâs what I thought and thatâs why I did it. Once I came toâŚthis happened.â
OMG, THAT LOOK IN HIS EYES WHEN SHE TELLS HIM!!! âIn this world, youâre the only one whoâs on your side,â THAT THE WORDS SO TOLD HAE SOO HIMSELF AND NOW SHE IS BASICALLY PARAHPRASING THEM IN FRONT OF HIM! And it breaks him! Heâs just promised himself that he will be the one to protect her, hasnât he?! Her words rattle him because while he might hate the fact HS hurt himself, in the end he does understand why she did it and can relate to it because itâs the same for him - the instinct to protect yourself no matter what, no matter the odds or how strong the opponent is because it beats everything, even the fear of consequences. SHE IS SO BRUTALLY HONEST ABOUT HERSELF AND EVERYTHING WITH HIM! Compared to such intensity and sincerity her âconversationâ with Wook after she woke up feels so empty and terribly lacking. You can see from the way how overwrought and desperate HS is, that sheâs been bottling it up all inside, not having anyone to confide in about it (no mother, no best friend) because everyoneâs been tiptoeing around that topic, afraid to talk about it, afraid to hurt her or make her uncomfortable. However, with So she does talk about things that really matter, no matter how painful or awkward - he has the ability to draw her out of her shell. Itâs So, not Wook, she tells all these things, itâs HIM SHE SHARES HERSELF WITH - her innermost thoughts, her fears, weaknesses and insecurities - BECAUSE IN THE DEEPEST RECESSES OF HER HEART SHE KNOWS HE IS THE ONE WHO WOULD UNDERSTAND HER AND WONâT JUDGE HER!
âYou stupid girl. Donât do this again. I wonât ever forgive you.â
There is no pity or awkwardness in Soâs eyes and voice when he tells her, only torment, pain, acceptance and tenderness; it might sound like on order, but he is pleading with her. It affects HS much more than Wookâs kindness and compassion and the sheer intensity of Soâs piercing gaze makes her look because suddenly itâs too much.