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A redraw of a moment where the two comfortably relax together at Luncheon’s bench, this one is particularly sweet to me with how cute Chantilly (Pizza) looks resting on Chicory’s lap.

Chicory & Chantilly

informative post i made for instagram regarding the catastrophic earthquakes here in my country but i thought i'd share it here too

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on the 24th of june, a national holiday commemorating the battle of carabobo during the war of independence as well as st. john's day, at around 6pm, venezuela was hit with back-to-back 7.2 and 7.5 magnitude earthquakes.

i thought the bombing of caracas in january 3rd earlier this year was the scariest thing i'd experienced. i take that back. this was the scariest thing i've experienced in my life. and the thing is i wasn't even hurt, my building took little to no damage and my family is fine and accounted for (thank god for that!) but i feel so sick because the damage has been devastating in other parts of the country and i can't stop thinking about the thousands of people who lost their homes, their loved ones and their lives throughout this whole thing, and how the death toll will continue to rise as hospitals are understaffed and rescue teams are underequipped. i'm enraged because we are so underprepared for a disaster like this, because this government doesn't give a fuck about its people and the money that could've gone for disaster prevention and relief was all pocketed by the regime. blood on their hands, if there was even room for any more than they already had.

it's 9am as i type this and i haven't slept at all since yesterday. i felt aftershocks through the night and even right now. some of them might have been my own paranoia and stress from the situation but others were definitely very real.

i'm still trying to process it. this is the biggest natural disaster to hit venezuela in our lifetime.

if you have relatives or you know somebody from venezuela and you can't get ahold of them after the earthquakes, try to see if you can find them in the following sites: (y si eres de venezuela, por favor contribuye con reportes de lo que sepas)

https://desaparecidosterremotovenezuela.com/

https://terremotovenezuela.app

https://sosvenezuela2026.com/

If you are getting gender affirming surgery, especially if it’s your first major surgery, PLEASE be aware that you can become SEVERELY depressed afterwards ESPECIALLY if you have a history of depression or suicidal ideation.

Post op depression is a natural reaction to the crazy mix of hormones your body goes through after major surgery as well as the stress and anxiety of recovery. Think of it like an adrenaline crash, but dragged out longer.

For me it kicked in about 6 weeks after top surgery and the worst of it lasted until about 10 weeks post op. EVERYTHING felt IMPOSSIBLE. None of the skills I’d been practicing worked. I thought everything was going to be bad forever. I didn’t attempt, but I was in the hospital. If it wasn’t for my support system I probably would have attempted.

This is not regret, but it can feel like it. I remain happy about my results to this day (going on six years later).

This is not you failing to maintain your mental health, but it can make you feel like a failure.

Things are not hopeless, but through the haze of this depression they can feel hopeless.

It can be terrifyingly sudden or it can sneak up on you. I didn’t even realize what was going on until after the depression finally passed and my mental health went back to normal.

I am writing this post because nobody told me about this before my top surgery. I was caught completely off guard. For my subsequent surgeries being aware has made all the difference. Being able to treat those symptoms as an expected and normal part of the healing journey has made them far easier to deal with. Because even when my emotions go to dark places I *know* they will pass. I have been able to tell the bad thoughts to take a bad seat and focus on healing.