lestat: what if there was a great female vampire who was immensely powerful but needed me? what if she was made of stone so she could never leave or say something cruel or sit up or go anywhere without her keeper (me) her caretaker (also me) her child (me!!)? what if I showed her things that were interesting and exciting to me and she responded in ways I could construe as approving? what if the only thing I knew about her is that she is the progenitor of us all and I had no choice but to devote my life to caring for her and keeping track of her nightmarish fragility that could doom us all even though she has never asked for it because (again) she can't speak or protest?

lestat: sobbing screaming hyperventilating telling his super traumatic life story

friend: please drink tonight you're so weird when you're sober

when a songs lyrics use repetition to signify growing desperation and emotion that additional words wouldnt be able to convey

Maladaptive deeply held belief: nobody could ever love me. Im going to die alone