How did you do it? I really need to know because I’m having trouble. Im thinking I’m just weird and I over dramatize myself in your life. That’s hard to accept too. Just about Everyday we had some sort of interaction and I got very accustomed to that and it’s hard to accept that it doesn’t bother you . I’m not like you in so many ways. I never had anyone fall in love with me . You’ve experience a few . Having said that,it’s pretty sad to say that the little thing we had was the closest thing I had to it. Probably why I’m still stuck. You’ll never agree or admit to this, but your method of exiting out of my life was flawed. One minute I felt like you cared about me then it was just gone . Completely. You used to always ask why I acted like you were trying or going to fuck me over. Why was I always assuming the worst . Why did I think you werent thinking about my feeling or in my best interest . Well I think you clearly illustrated .. why . The thing is I believed you . I had fully started to believe you weren’t going to hurt me . I had completely let all my walls down and I think it was the worst feeling Realizing I didn’t mean as much as I thought I did to you. I blame myself. I should of known better. But I really thought that the way I felt and the thing I always felt between us was real. Because well I tried out ofmy way to avoid it . But I was always drawn to you. I actually thought it was there for a reason. I learned my lesson the hard way. Because now I look for this feeling everywhere . I want it back so badly and It’s hard to forget it . I hope I do and I pray so badly that you aren’t my first thought of the day . But no, as soon as I wake up, they you are. Well that’s all . I hope I can stop bugging you already because it does hurt seeing how uninterested you are in me and I sometimes I just wish I can stop feeling everything .

Glad to hear that! You back for good?