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Community gardens could be a good rotted Yngya song addressing the Lamb

It gives “Don’t worry about it sweetie, everything will be fine (I’m toxic and I’m scared I’ll hurt you)”

Here’s another song that reminds me of her. About how, on some level, Yngya is happy she was an absent mother because she feels like otherwise she would have failed to protect the Lamb, like she failed to protect the rest of her flock.

And the Bishops were just mortal creatures who picked up the crowns in order to better achieve what everyone else was using power to achieve anyways. And they only knew others as threats or tools, so that’s how they go about treating mortals until they find someone like them. And rather than treat each other as threats or tools they kinda respect each other for being people in this world who chose to wield the same power to get by, and they kinda decide to cooperate and share in the strange journey of crown wielder-ship with the only other people in the world whose experiences they could relate to.

And it felt nice to finally have another who they weren’t against but who they could embark on life in a really chaotic world with. But as soon as their continued alliance jeopardized power, the only thing they had known to keep them safe up until then, they threw away companionship to hold onto their old way of safety and immediately felt miserable at what they lost. But maybe had to deny it because why let go of safety and prosperity secured by personal power for this new sense of family that they found? Could it really be worth more than that? Better to just blame each other rather than themselves for starting a conflict of interest, for ruining a good thing, when that good thing could have been able to endure a conflict of interest, if they just give up the way of life they knew up until then and relied on someone else even if that meant relinquishing power over them and maybe giving up immortality altogether.

They’re people who chose power over family because the first thing was the only thing they knew to rely on and strive for up until then and it made them feel conflicted. They seem like people who would have preferred companionship over just struggling with everyone for power and survival forever, so now I’m like these are pretty relatable, premoral, recklessly self-interested people. I’m glad they could make up and rekindle a sense of family afterwards. Like wow, I don’t hate these people anymore, good for them actually. RIP to all the people they hurt though, they should do like 100 lifetimes of humble living and unpaid community service to barely start to make up for it or something, idk.

Thank you! They have a funny codependent disaster dynamic to me.

I like the idea that Narinder, despite his denial of it, is pretty softhearted.

As the embodiment of death he thinks he can only be denied, hated, or feared and so embraces his role as a tyrant to whom everyone’s lives belong in the end, but he really just wants to be accepted.

And The Lamb can accept their own death because they are determined to live on their own terms in service of a cause that will outlive them. They live in a way that conquers rather than spreads the dread of death (the latter would be the case if the Lamb usurped him only to reprise his role as tyrant.)

I exist. I am here.

I exist!

Missing link from Utena can be so relevant to everything actually

I haven’t really thought about the more lighthearted aspects of the dynamic yet. I think pre-usurpation Narinder has feelings for the Lamb beyond just seeing them as a useful tool, that he denies or tries to rid himself of because he’s committed himself to the pursuit of power. He’s probably now cynical of love, considering the love between his family also gave way to the self-interested struggle for power, so he thinks that’s all that really matters in the end. To him, any feelings that would come into conflict with that are a sign of weakness. Though I do enjoy headcanons where Narinder still wishes to keep the Lamb around and treat them well in the afterlife though in a position that could never interfere with his ambitions. And I think it’s fun if the Lamb is sharp enough to piece this sad fact about Narinder together, and have to deal with what that means for the future of their relationship.

I sometimes think I make the Lamb too sad in my art - unrestrained I imagine them to be very sassy and childishly silly. I paint them as someone who is deep down very sentimentally bothered by injustice and holds a lot of repressed guilt, though they try to project an image of pragmatism and strength to maintain their reputation, and therefore protect themself. The guilt is even to the point of excess, the result of all the hatred they receive both from their enemies when they succeed and from their followers when they fail.

They see their enemies not really as intrinsically evil, but as profoundly flawed people, who are recklessly selfish, ironically to the point of self-destruction. But they are also very distrustful due to their own trauma and will hurt people out of paranoia if they think it will prevent further harm, which contributes to their guilt that they too might be recklessly selfish. They feel like this makes them undeserving of real love, not just the idolizing worship their followers give them, which they also feel undeserving of. I’m not sure how much Narinder can piece together about the Lamb. At the very least, he is aware that performing as a god takes a toll on the Lamb.

I see Tongues and Teeth as their low self esteem anthem in which they are both critical of Narinder’s ambitions, and the role of submission he expects them to play, but also fully aware of their own destructiveness in resisting to submit to those ambitions, and at the core of that is the sentiment “Even after how you treated me, I still care about your happiness. I want to be with you, but I am suspicious of you and will hurt you, but (probably vainly) hope you would still want to be with me despite that.”

The Lamb can tell when Narinder is hiding feelings of affection but is unsure whether he’ll ever want to act on those feelings or whether he’ll shut them out forever and just succeed in no longer having them. They don’t know which one would be better for him, so they don’t bother pushing him either way.

Ohh I will ruin you

It’s a habit - I can’t help it

i can always just draw temi with a gun

So may I request Temi cooking or baking something?

-UAs-Art :3

Marchosias would think “I could capture this ghost to find a way to cure the Rot through interrogation or experimentation on exorcism methods”

Temi would think “Ooh his lab and dissection tools look cool. It’d also be really cool if the stitching on his face came loose and his head split open like a melon”

I don’t know, maybe they could build a friendship off that.

I think this song’s lyrics fit any of the Woolhaven lambs and Marchosias (non-romantically mostly):

You have the thing I love

But the need in me is way too much

(But the fear in me is way too much)

If I, open wide

One of us may get lost inside

Me or you, one of us is going to need to die

My interpretation about how the song fits (in a non-shipping way) below: