✿AWKWARD WALL FL0WER✿

I love being alone <- girl who has known nothing but loneliness her entire life and so has no choice but to take comfort in it

I know that God is going to take care of me.

He already is 🫶🏽

What’s it called when you have feelings for someone but lose the desire to fight for that love …. like will it come back? Will I begin to genuinely care again or did shit just go too far this time?

Still. 10/3/23

and if the sun ain’t shining for you I hope the moon makes up for it

You’ll never know the AMOUNT of opposing spirits working against when you’re trying to better you’re life & im watching it happen RIGHT before my eyes. I’m not perfect & I don’t aim to be but I DO THE WORK. I’m invested in educating myself about the word of God & learning how to battle my personal walk through the life. Everyday isn’t easy! Some days I have to redirect my energy mentally … honestly EVERYDAY there’s something triggering to my attitude, irritability, anxiety, depression, insecurities YET i take the mental strength to redirect those bullets. My problem is that it’s the CONSTANT people around me (loved ones) who are CONSTANTLY projecting their perspective of me TO ME. “Oh you have an attitude” “Oh you wanna argue” “What’s wrong with you” & I can’t forget the other condescending quotes like “Nvm Chile” “imma leave you alone” These phrases irritate me bc I’m being labeled for a natural response that anybody would feel BUT I’m not allowing those emotions to take over my ENTIRE MOOD. THATS THE GOAL. But when I’m reminded of it or when these negative outlooks are projected onto me it subconsciously makes me want to live in that state! It’s draining to have to constantly correct people. NO I’m not mad. NO I don’t have an attitude. NO I don’t wanna argue. I simply just want to BE. I simply want to heal & become a better person. I AM TRYING. Yet no one seems to see that only the things THEY scan identify with which is negativity. Healing HAS to happen alone.

PLZ CUM PIK ME UP!

*all the bitches