A million miles a minute.

That's not how it works. So, as a pansexual, I want to explain what the inside of my head looks like

There are physical characteristics that I like and dislike. But, they are not related to sex or gender.

Why?

I can appreciate any combination of boobs, dick, vagina (etc). If I want you, I want whatever you have. If I love you, that want is even stronger. My physical preferences are things like "bigger than me in some way" or "has a good voice" (for example). Honestly, tattoos rule.

When it comes to gender and sex, that is also your choice, not mine. Are you happy with your identity? Nice! I will support whatever your identity is, including if you change it. I have no preference on this I do find certain fashions attractive. Fashion can, of course, be deeply entwined with gender. But, when I'm attracted to a style, this applies universally. I also find certain styles universally ugly. Toe shoes look bad on everyone, in my opinion Alongside all this, I am also panromantic. My love is not connected to one gender or sex. I still care about values, voting, interests, goals, humor, behavior, and kinks. Being pan doesn't change any of that.

consider that it might not be normal

I've been on the depo shot contraceptive for several years longer than you're supposed to because it manages these symptoms, I had to go off it for a while by doctor suggestion to reassess if I still need it, my period has been back for three days and I'm seeing my doctor TODAY to get back on depo because I just can't handle the physical and emotional toll it takes on me