Thursday August 13, 2020
1:58pm
It’s so crazy how we weren’t taught so many little things as a child. You just do what people say or imitate their actions. And I think that’s where the root of a lot of problems lie, in actions. I’m on my lunch break watching the Surviving Vegan Podcast. The episode is about setting healthy boundaries. One thing Grizzy the King touched on which made the light bulb in me come on was, no one ever taught us how to communicate with each other. All we know is, what we’ve seen our parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles etc do. Think about that for a second. Think about your family and how you were raised. Did everyone talk to one another with respect? How did the husbands talk to their wives? How did the wives talk to there husbands? We all know the divine feminine and masculine carry certain energies, and we all possess both. However both biological sexes communicate differently. Men communicate in a more logical way, while women communicate in a more emotional way. The problem is we try to make the other person communicate in our nature, and that’s why people fight and argue.
I’m taking all of this in because, I want to become the best version of myself. Not only that, one day I’ll have a family, and I want them to know as much as possible when it comes to communication. My nature is feminine. However my presentation is masculine. I play a masculine role in my relationship. Mindfulness is my best friend. As a stud I have to be mindful, of the woman I’m pursuing. When communicating with her I have to feel and understand the emotions behind it. But I also have to keep the logic together and see the bigger picture. In the past I haven’t been pretty mindful. My life was a loop, making sure I don’t get fucked over or betrayed by anyone. In result, it made me paranoid, bitter, and judgemental, and very controversial. This behavior was a result of my trauma. Now, I’m starting to be more mindful. Meditation has been helping me a lot. My life map is also keeping my head in the right place. Evolving feels really good.














