WELCOME TO MY WORLD.

You're pro-life until your wife is told by the doctor that her pregnancy is nonviable, her baby has no kidneys or a brain, and will most likely die before birth. Under the new law, he cannot remove the fetus, even if it is stillborn, and your wife is forced to follow through with the delivery. You get to watch the fallout of her having to tell family, friends, co-workers, over and over what is going to happen when they ask her when's she's due.

You're pro-life until the doctor tells you and your wife that she will most likely die if the pregnancy is brought to term, along with the baby. Your future, your soulmate, your everything will likely disappear in less than 1 short year and nobody can help you.

You're pro-life until your wife has a partial miscarriage, and doctors refuse to remove the rest of the fetus citing the new abortion laws. Your wife dies of septic. You get to arrange her funeral.

So, many of you don’t know me. Who even knows why you’re reading this or how you found it. My name is Austin. I am a young adult, panseuxal, with an outstanding personality. At least, I like to think I am pretty outstanding. I am constantly thinking whether it be about boys, what I am doing with my life, decisions, what I am spending my time doing, who I am with, etc… I spend a lot of time thinking. I want to make others happy. That’s one thing I know for sure.

Now, I guess that is enough about me. Let’s talk about life a little bit. It’s pretty fucking hard out there, isn’t it? There is always something to worry about, to push you into anxiety. People always say it will get better, that depression doesn’t last forever. It gets old, doesn’t it? Everyone has their own problems and people take it upon themselves to try and make it seem like nothing ever goes wrong.

I want to pour out into you right now something very important. Please don’t be silent about your feelings. People care, they understand, and it’s not your fault for struggling. You’re a unique person who has a purpose, is important, and does matter. Please don’t EVER let anyone tell you anything different. Sometimes people don’t understand. That doesn’t mean they don’t care or that you’re not important to them.

We all crave that affection of being loved by someone else. Being held and called beautiful. Having someone to call yours and only yours. I recently went on a date and it was wonderful. He opened doors for me, held me while the movie played, and told me how beautiful I was. Afterwards we were supposed to go out to dinner. He asked if we could reschedule because of an early start the next day. Of course I smiled and said no problem.

The next day came and I got no call. I texted him, called him, wrote him on Facebook, and still no reply. I sat as the hours went by, slowly going into the night time. That’s when I realized there wouldn’t be a call, a text, or a message. I was heart broken. I went through the whole date, replayed it in my head. What could I have done different? Was I not good enough for him?

I was devastated. I cried myself to sleep. It isn’t fair. There is nothing wrong with me yet, I continually fail to find someone to love me. I think we all want to be loved, and we let the smallest things ruin our whole self confidence. One day I will find that person that will hold me, let me hold them, and let me show them how much love I have to give. We are all beautiful and unique, with so much to give others. Don’t let that single disaster ruin your life.

Sometimes it can be really hard to be honest. Creating lies can seem like a much better way to get out of situations that are tough, or that you don't want to deal with. It can be hard, and telling the truth has so many terrifying outcomes. Lying can come in many different forms. If you want someone to like you better, you may lie about some things you do to fit in.

If there is something someone hates but you love, and you don't want to be judged you may lie. Being fake comes with lying, because lying is a sign of you not being comfortable with who you truly are. You're creating this persona to get people to like you, or think better of you. I've done it, everyone has done it. Sometimes you can lie without even thinking about it, slipping out of your mouth before you can even catch it.