if i didn't trust you, it would be fine

god nobody fucking cares

nobody gives a shitttttt

i cant even form new relationships it always fizzles out early on no matter how i try !?!?!! i had a bit of hope for becomjng friends with this one mutual and she was sending me stuff and talking to me and everything and then nothing... and i sent her stuff back and nothing...!!!!!!!!!!!! like she responded but we havent talked since idkk idkkk its not like im not trying , i try so hard soooo hard so hard to come off normal and approachable and friendly, i try so many things but everyone can sniff out the thing deep inside me that makes me inherently different and worse than everyone else and they all know im a worthless excuse of a person they dont want to be around.

i just want to be worth SOMETHING to SOMEONE

i feel so miserable like my life is so empty and alone i genuinely feel like anyone who cared about me even a little has given up on me and abandoned me. i dont miss my ex At All but i do miss having someone to talk to. someone that (feigned) caring about me. i just wish there was someone i was #1 for

haha youre like a dog waitjng at the door for its owner to come home 🤣🤣🤣

nobody FUCKING CARES what i have to say ever. and i wish i wasnt so hyperfixated on our stupid ocs so i could stop thinking about it and stop sending messages that are never going to be replied to

does anyone know if the all encompassing loneliness and isolation ever ends 🤣🤣

genuinely drains the life out of me when this happens

girl im never going to get a response im going to be waiting for like a week again. awesome. reminding me why i was avoiding all that . #normal

#Okay

i feel like im doing everything with our ocs on my own 😂😂 graduated from saying we will and then never making any ocs together at all while it has with other people (ex) to having ocs together except im the only one working on them or talking about them or drawing art for them and when shes not busy shes working on projects with other people instead (bsf) 🤣🤣

i go to bed feeling lonely i wake up feeling lonely i spend the day feeling lonely i cry over how i failed my late dog which is unrelated i go to bed lonely i wake up lonely again i spend the day feeling lonely again and again and again and again