avpd fucking sucks

Nothing is sexi to me anymore

I'm gaining weight coz of depression eating and the constipation combined but I like feel less dysphoria so that's cool right

Why am I so jealous of ppl who did drugs and were slutty as teenagers... Why is it so guterwrenching,... it like makes me so angry when I'm reminded of it like i got punched in the stomach . Why can't I like. Get over it. Yeah my teenhood wasnt dark and adventurous and cool... I also don't have trauma so I should be happy. But I'm not. I wanna be a cool sexy punk kid with a haunting past :(

I love going to interviews and not having the social skills to answer their questions :)

Sucks that when I lose weight I look anorexic and scary but still have a huge stomach that hangs over lol :)

gained a lil weight n look more like a boy in the face again.. sick of playing these games

I constantly want dessert bc I'm depressed and numb it's becoming an issue lol

Don't know how to have sex without acting like a boy and referring to things as boy parts but maybe I just don't know how to have sex lol

Make me boy again

if only living as a cis looking dude wasn't isolating and terrifying bc I'm not cis and don't wanna interact with cis men

two ppl have said literally the exact same thing to me lmao, first saying crying is good it's ok to let it out and then five minutes later when I'm crying again being like ok you gotta calm down tho