vents / virtual diary

everything ive been doing is a fat cry for help im at the end of my everything i am giving up i dont care anymore im not needed i need to stop fucking hurting people i need to stop butting in i need to see that i just dont belong and i never will and accept that and fucking move on

i am sooooo fucking close to relapsing rn

s ddownright patheticof me whenits veen shown to me how onesided it is over n over

ggonna stop chasing people that dont want me

hell at least if he was mad hed be talking to me i wish he was mad i need literally any kind of attention lmfao

mayb i should leave n make it easy for him i know he doesn't wanna stay

nobody will ever love me and i think that's for the best

i dont wanna feel anything anymore

keeping my notifs on 4 one person to check it and it be a fucking spam email about 7 times in a row is a cruel joke

how to be okay w/being abandoned again quick no glue no borax

im incapable of existing with other people and feeling at the same time i ffucking ruin everything i touch

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m never gonna get anyones undivided attention i fear

maybe i dont belong anywhere

gonna cry myself to sleep for the 3rd time thos week m surprised m still hydrated enough