Shut Me Up

not much has really changed since my last vague post X months ago. i still work nights at the same job. just recently started in a new department of the plant. i like it. my social interaction with others i was once friends with is low but it comes with working while everyone else sleeps. plus it is not like i did not try to keep some of the relationships, most did not understand that i slept during the hours they deemed the perfect time to hang out.

hi again... well i somehow ended up here again. honestly it feels just like yesterday i was typing up my little recap of trying to find my old self within the contents of this blog. this time i am here because  i have been forced to use my old laptops. my pride and joy alienware x51 had to be retired due to the motherboard dying and i am unable to source a replacement part. i am waiting on parts for a new custom build to arrive. then i will send the x51 out to dell since i still have a warranty but doubt anything good will come out of it. this has been the third hardware issue i have had with it and i am just done. but i degrees, so i am currently using a laptop i used up until the last few weeks of my senior year in highschool, late may of 2016. i did power up another one i had stickerbombed the shell with bands i liked and got stumped on whatever password i cleverly decided on. the lock screen made my heartache. it was one of those picture collages with the tumblreques type stickers poorly photoshopped on it. like candy hearts with phases like ‘2 fab 4 u’ on them. that came from a whole other me and yet i do not know what happened to them. 

from time and to time again i remember this blog is still here. just a reminder of a life i used to live, i started this back in 2011 i think and have been ghosting since late 2015. coming back in hope to remember why i liked reblogging what i did.

its been a long time...