𝐴𝑢𝑟𝑜𝑟𝑎 ℎ𝑒𝑚𝑝

Hi everyone. I haven't been here for a long time.

And I want to say that I'm really struggling with my mental health. I tried to quit smoking for nine months, and in May, I relapsed. For a year now, I haven't been able to interact with people normally without alcohol. I’ve lost all my emotions. I’m experiencing a relapse of my eating disorder and have serious self-esteem issues

Due to months of depression and self-loathing, I stopped posting on social media. Consequently, I ceased to be interesting to people.

All the photos I’ve posted over this time seem boring and "messy" to me, and I want to delete them all. I also feel like I look fat in some of them, and I want to come back only after I’ve lost weight and reached my goal weight.

Guys, please, never take me as an example. I’m just a pretty image on the internet. In reality, I am mentally ill and deeply lonely

(This is a serious post for me—a cry for help. I am very afraid to talk about my problems because people might judge me for them later on. And please excuse any mistakes in the text.)

𓊆ྀི𝔐𝛾 𝔰𝔨𝔦𝔫 𝔦𝔰 𝔣𝔯𝔬𝔷𝔢𝔫 𝔰𝔬 𝛾𝔬𝔲 𝔠𝔞𝔫 𝔢𝔞𝔱 𝔦𝔱 𝔩𝔦𝔨𝔢 𝔦𝔠𝔢 𝔠𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔪𓊇ྀི