A heart that yearns

Twin Peaks, 1990, dir. Graeme Clifford

"The Fight Response and the Scapegoat", by Clementine Morrigan

Audrey’s prayer

I feel like I'm gonna dream tonight...

Truman startles and gets out his gun the moment Jean stabs Blackie. But rather than intervening in any way, he then leans in closer to see what's happening. Jean lowers Blackie to the ground, and as her head rolls over her eyes open slightly, and her gaze lands on Truman. Jean follows her line of sight and spots him through the curtains.

The fact that he gets out his gun implies he understands that violence just occurred. The fact he then lowers his gun, and leans in for a better look-

A voyeur and a bystander. Fascinated by what is happening. Unwilling to act immediately to try to save her, but willing to endanger his cover by staring. That's how their cover is blown- Harry is the one who gets caught.

Which is more likely: that Nancy, after being beaten into the wall by Cooper, badly enough he didn't think to restrain her further, somehow got out from behind Cooper and sounded the alarm? Or that Jean, having slipped out of Truman's line of sight, alerted the guard, who would have killed Truman, Cooper, and Audrey if Hawk hadn't followed them?

Truman identified himself as his best man, and would have doomed them all if his actual best man hadn't arrived in time. Hawk did more with a hunting knife than Truman did with a gun.

The last thing Blackie saw as she died was the face of a stranger, watching her through glass, only acting after Jean shoots at him. She died knowing someone was there. She was not alone. And no one saved her.

Truman got out his gun, yet still lingered. What part of him knew that a woman had been stabbed, and what part wondered of it was only a kiss? If no part did: why did he watch?