Prologue | Desperate Hollow
Tex Bullock is no stranger to shoot-outs. Heâs participated in more than any sane man would, but heâs still standing. Even when the odds are against himâdown to his last bullet, outmaneuvered or outnumberedâhis pulse stays steady. As long as heâs got his hand wrapped round the familiar hilt of a revolver, the thud of his heart keeps consistent time.Â
But at this particular moment, his two six-shooters are safe and secure in their holsters and his blood is racing through his veins.Â
âWhatever you choose, Tex, Iâll stand by you.â Sawyerâs eyes are wide and honest. âWhatever you choose.âÂ
It doesnât make any sense, is the thing. Sawyer Watson is not a man inclined to nonsense and yet ten minutes ago heâd shown up to where the Boys were staying on the outskirts of a one-horse town and proceeded to spout a whole lot of it.
âWhat are you trying to say?â When Barlowe speaks, his voice is far calmer than Sawyerâs. It should soothe Tex. It doesn't. âWhat do you think Tex is going to do?â
âThatâs up to him,â Venom laces Sawyerâs voice but his eyes donât move from Tex. âBut I think heâd be well within his rights to shoot you where you stand.âÂ
âWhoa, hold on now, SawyerââÂ
The words come out of him before he can think. Itâs the first thing Tex has said since Sawyer started in on his accusations and Sawyer looks at him like heâs crazy for butting in, which is a little rich. Sawyerâs the crazy one, saying all the shit heâs saying like its true.
âHavenât you been listeninâ?â Sawyer shouts, eyes pleading. âHeâs been lying to you, for yearsââÂ
âSawyer, youâve got the wrong end of the stick here,â Barlowe says. âI have never lied to any of youââÂ
âYouâre lyinâ right now!â Sawyer looks at Barlowe, waving around the papers he has clutched in his fist. âThese letters are proofââÂ
âI truly have no idea what youâre talking about,â Barlowe says, still unmoved by the implosion of Texâs life that Sawyer claims to hold in his hand.Â
Sawyerâs eyes are back on Tex and his expression is as close to begging as Tex as ever seen. Despite everything, a rush of heat flows through Tex at the sight. Â
âTex, come on,â he says, extending his arm. âYou take a look yourself and youâll seeââÂ
âDonât you go putting lies and poison into Texâs head,â Barlowe says, spurred into action. The step forward he takes is small, but like everything he does, itâs with a confidence and certainty that would make most men cower.Â
Sawyer Watson is not most men.Â
âRight.â Sawyer laughs, mean and short. âThatâs your job, ainât it?â
âTex. Son.â The way Barlowe addresses him is warm and familiar, but he doesnât look away from Sawyer, who refuses to return his gaze. âI know youâve got a good heart, you see the best in folks, but this boy has always tried to get between us.âÂ
Both Tex and Sawyer flinch. Sawyer, Tex suspects, because he hates being called âboyâ outside the collective use; Tex because Barloweâs words bring to mind the last argument that Tex and Sawyer had, an argument that had left Tex furious and sent Sawyer into the wind. And now Sawyer is back and what had begun as relief at the sight of him swung right back into anger when Sawyer decided to turn his world upside down. Â
âYou know I wouldnât lie to you,â Sawyer says, voice desperate. âNot about this. I know we both said a hell of a lot the last time we saw each otherââÂ
âYou admitted yourself that you wanted to leave,â Tex says, figuring he canât make matters between Sawyer and Barlowe worse.Â
That may have been a miscalculation. Barloweâs eyes flare.Â
âDid he now?â Barlowe leans back on his heels, looking around at the rest of the Boys, who have gathered around them in anxious interest. An argument between Sawyer and Barlowe isnât so unusual as to spur anyone to intervene, but it seems everyone can sense this is different. âSee? Sawyer Watson may have contributed his fair share over the years, but there was never true loyaltyââÂ
âYou wanna talk about loyalty?â Sawyer spits, cutting off what was surely building to be one of Barloweâs grandstanding monologues. âWith the way you been treatinâ Tex his whole lifeââÂ
âThat ainât fair,â Tex argues. âIâd be dead several times over if it werenât for him.âÂ
âBut donât you want more than that, Tex?â Sawyer takes a step toward him and out of the corner of his eye, Tex sees Barloweâs right hand twitch. âYou can ask for more than just survivalââÂ
He canât help the scoff that leaves his mouth. âWell, thatâs easy for you to say, isnât it? I donât have the options you do. I donât have the hope of a cousin in California, another family I can join, easy as thatââÂ
âBut thatâs what Iâm tellinâ you, Tex! You couldâve had that!â The shouting has reached a fever pitch, the tension throughout the small ramshackle camp threatening to snap any second. âBut youâve been too useful to Barlowe for too longââÂ
âHang on.â Barlowe steps forward again. Thereâs still a considerable distance between Barlowe and Sawyer, with Tex stuck between, but every minuscule movement seems enormous. âTex is as good a member of our family as there ever has been, but he is more than just his use. You may not see that, Sawyer, with whatever scheme youâre trying to rope him into, but I do. I love this boy like heâs my own and Iâm just trying to protect himââÂ
Tex is too overwhelmed to be ashamed at how quickly tears gather in the corners of his eyes. It is beyond surreal to hear those words from Barloweâs lips. To have someone admit that they love him.Â
A desperate, broken sound cuts through the air. Tex looks over to see Sawyerâs crumpled expression, like heâs just had a knife slid right between his ribs.Â
âGoddammit, donât you see?âÂ
If Tex thought Sawyer looked close to begging before, now he feels Sawyer might actually get on his knees. The rush of heat becomes a fire, sweeping through Tex and remaking the landscape inside him so completely, he nearly forgets that Barlowe just called him family.Â
âHeâs manipulating you!â Sawyer takes another deliberate step toward him that Tex feels with a tug low in his gut. "Heâs always been manipulating you. And when you read these letters, youâll see, your fathââÂ
Tex is no stranger to shoot-outs and he knows with perfect accuracy when one is about to begin, like feeling electricity on the air the moment before lightning strikes.Â
Several things happen, seemingly all at once. The hand near Barloweâs hip twitches again and this time, Sawyer notices too. Sawyerâs own hand reaches for his gun, confident, as if heâd always been planning to pull it. And Tex knows exactly whatâs coming, sees what he stands to lose.Â
Sawyer is many thingsâa sharp mind, a strong hand in a fight, the best friend Tex has ever hadâbut his draw has never been half as quick as Barloweâs. Heâs never needed to get good at it, not with Tex by his side.Â
Tex can picture the next ten seconds with disturbing clarity; it plays out like a shadow puppet show on the back of his eyelids, a single blink bringing a new horrifying vision of the future.Â
Barlowe will get a shot off first.Â
The bullet will bury itself into Sawyerâs chest.
Tex will watch Sawyer die.Â
So he does the only thing he can. He steps forward.Â
Heâs facing Sawyer when the shot rings out. In the breath between the loud crack of the gun and a sharp pain in his shoulder, he looks over every inch of Sawyer that he can. Not to memorize himâevery detail of the man is already locked permanently into Texâs brainâbut to indulge. His eyes land in their familiar favorite places: Sawyerâs broad shoulders, his capable hands, the warmth of his dark brown skin, the straight pillar of his spine. The gold flecks dappled in the brown of his eyes that are as rich and bright as the sun, lit by the clever spark thatâs always in Sawyerâs gaze. Â
Tex wants to tell him just how brilliantly his beauty burns but heâs flying backward before any final confessions can leave his lips.Â
He has time to recognize that the plan worked, if in a roundabout way. Sawyer is safe, but it was his bullet that left his gun first. He even has time to be proud of Sawyer, for his uncharacteristic quick draw, before life starts to blur at the edges.Â
He thinks he hears someone scream his name, more gunshots, the sound of hooves, but Tex is too busy focusing on breathing to register more than the broadest details. He canât see a thing other than the clear blue sky above him. His left hand twitches on the ground, dirt getting underneath his fingernails, until it finally finds the top of his revolver. The metal is warm to the touch, heated by the sun thatâs been beating down on him all day.Â
Tex tries focusing on that warmth, on the comfortable curve of the hilt underneath his palm, instead of the throbbing pain thatâs suddenly overtaken his right shoulder. He thinks his arm is wet, but itâs going numb so fast he canât tell. He pulls out his pistol, just enough to run his fingertips on the inside of the wood grip, tracing the familiar, comforting carving there.
The sun is getting darker in the cloudless sky and Tex has just enough life left in him to close his eyes and be grateful that he did something right for once. That he stood between Sawyer and death, and that he got to look at Sawyer, one last time, while he did.Â
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