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Sylas He/They Nonbinary It has been slow going but progress is progress and I'm happy to see even the smallest of changes. I've been on Testogel for 12 months but i have decided to swap to injections this year. The reason behind the change is a mix of annoyance at having to apply the gel each day, and I'll be living with housemates who have cats next year, (Testogel is quite toxic to them). I'm not fond of needles but i am quite stubborn when i need to be, hopefully the two make it workable. I'll also be buying an Auto injector that is reusable. It comes from Canada and should make the process a LOT more manageable. If it turns out i don't have the nerve to stab myself I'll just get the nurse to do it. Changes are more noticeable in my face, but my hips have definitely slimmed down and my rib cage and shoulders are definietly wider. Body hair is being kept at bay/irradiated with a home IPL hair removal. Including my face as it makes me dysphoric. Muscle is a LOT easier to put on, keeping up with an excersize routine when you have ADHD and mental illness is difficult but i manage most weeks, and seeing results helps to keep me going. My voice has settle quite a bit deeper than i was expecting, I'm just glad i don't squeak anymore. Between my voice and name i mostly get Sir (Which I'm not fond of because i don't ID as a man, and hate titles but hey, its better than ma'am...) First surgeon consult with Dr Cheng Hean Lo on the 28th of Feb. Hoping my date for top surgery will be at the end of 2022 or beginning of 2023.

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These photos of me were taken in the first Covid lock down in Melbourne. Just a couple months before i got diagnosed with ASD and realized i was Trans. My diagnosis helped me realize that i was masking far more than just Autism, and that began a very quick spiral into rediscovering myself and my identity. I am Transmasculine, i am not obligated to present how others think i should. I am Ace, i am not obligated to hide the fact i do not find people sexually attractive, even though i am sex favorable. I am Pan-romantic, i am not obligated to "choosing a side" I am Autistic, and i am not obligated to hide my differences or difficulties to ease other comfort. Quality of life is more important than someone else's arbitrary discomfort with your identity. (Mask/underwere/nipple covers and earnings all made by me. Wolfrabbit Oddities)

I will swap the Lactic Acid for the The Ordinary Aha 30% + Bha 2% Peeling Solution, twice a week. This is because as far as i know, the Lactic Acid 5% + HA is not supposed to be a continues use product. I recommend not introducing a Retinoid unless your current routine is working reliably. And use a low dose slowly working up. It has a tendency to cause irritation and a breakout while your skin gets used to it, commonly referred to as a "Purge". This happen to me, lots of tiny little bumps that turned into pimples in my usual breakout areas. My purge phase lasted about 3 months, the worst of which was in the first month then slowly got better.

I made a meme, that’s a first for me.. I said this to a friend, i just recently watched the LOTR and The hobbit series again, and can say that this is definitely how i now identify.

More digital pine forest artwork in my tattoo quest.

Artwork by Sylas R Richard This one has an old signature on it before i came out as trans and changed my name. But my new signature looks almost identical so.. On the quest to create a tattoo for myself i often find myself creating pine forest with ink splatters. At some point ill pinpoint exactly what i want and get inked :)

The Wolf & The Rabbit. Artwork by Sylas R Richard This one is quite personal, Wolfrabbit is the the name i gave my business (now known as Wolfrabbit Oddities) but its not just an odd sounding mash up of words. Its actually a reference to my PTSD and growing up with a lot of trauma and abuse. Its a difficult feeling to describe, but i feel as though all of my rage has been shaped into the form of a wolf to defend myself. Don’t mistake softness for weakness, we all have the fury of our past burning inside our hearts. And love can be a great deal more powerful than hate.

Artwork by Sylas R Richard I still need to finish this one, i have yet to  finish the shadows for added depth. Inspired by HP Lovecraft (obviously) first hand drawn than redrawn in photoshop and coloured. I often sketch my ideas out in pencil before scanning them into photoshop to rework. 

Artwork by Sylas R Richard More digital art designs, inspired by inkblots and my love of skulls. Available on t-shirts via https://www.teepublic.com/t-shirt/4294881-skull?store_id=141987

Artwork by Sylas R Richard Random digital artwork of my wolfrabbit character. You’ll notice them popping up in artwork quite a bit as i do scribbles of them often. Also available on a t-shirt via https://www.teepublic.com/t-shirt/19911018-crazy-bunny

Artwork by Sylas R Richard (me) I’m a big fan of the Alien movie. This was created as a t-shirt design, as pictured. It is still available to perches at my TeePublic account. https://www.teepublic.com/user/wolfrabbit

Artwork by Sylas R Richard Some old card designs i did for my business. I still like the design but no longer use it. This ones from 2016?

Artwork by Sylas R Richard (Me) Thought id start uploading my artwork again. This one is old, i believe it was made in something like 2012?  Cant remember and there is no date on it...