tumbling down the rabbithole of my hyperfixations

Watched this episode for the first time today.

And it got me thinking.. what L exactly was feeling in these last moments?

Defeated? Regretful?

Betrayed? Because I think, even though he was absolutely sure that Light was Kira.. there might be some tiny part of him that maybe, just maybe, wished that he wasn't. That part of him that made him call Light "his first friend". Maybe.. idk.

Or.. Satisfaction? Of finally confirming what he knew all along. That he was right about Light being Kira. Atleast he died with this satisfaction. That his ways, his deduction skills, all his effort weren't in vain, that he wasn't wrong. That what he said wasn't nonsense as Light said.

(I hate him sm for this.)

Geto said "You should at least curse me a little at the end.."

And then, there's a lyric in the 2nd Opening song of the anime 'Where Is Our Blue' (which is like Gojo's love letter to Geto) which says..