I CAN MAKE YOU NOCTURNAL

the people in the van asked me if i had family and said to choose my family now so i dont know what to do this is about . im doing everything wrong i dont want to die for this but i know this isnt right. i do have internalised racism but there is no way. none of this is right they waited until everything was at the perfect time. they waited until other petty stuff happened and they waited until i had mentalnhealth crises im actusly pussjing myself to thenlimit here becauae im scared. considering everythingni mightndonwhat they say but i thinkntheure doing it to other people they alreadybhave my confession. my "family" is not with ... well. the way they were talking down to someone at my care home. made me sick maybe they i dont know. i really am autistic no its because i have prooofnof someone else being abused they want mentondelete that. they wantnme to die or delete it or kill someone lol. or go to prison

i probably wont be on much

this isnt gonna sound like much coming from me or ive just been a hermit for too long but i do think people are actually targetting me racially lol

girl tell me the psych ward stay was not to teach me people profit off of fear and pain like tell me that isnt true