Atocatnow

Current feeling: My heart is being broken because stories are driving me crazy because I can't be in them and my life is way too boring. I don't have any sort of genuine say or control over anything and it's made me give up. I'm just waiting until i'm finally free then I want to write stories that break the hearts of others. I love it when you break someone's heart when they least expect it.

🌟 General Info 🌟

Call me Fern or Atocatnow (not my actual irl name)

She/her

Collector

Capricorn

Pyrokinetic

WindClan

Evil

Probably depressed

🌠 Here are some of my favorite things/stories because they are basically my personality. It's a long list so just skip if you don't feel you have the time. I'm also open to suggestions for shows, movies, and books.

📖Favorite books, series, and comics📖

Legendborn Cycle ( was obsession before July 23rd, 2025) 🎇

Aurora (newest obsession as of July 23rd, 2025 ) 🔥 🪨⚡️💧🌿 🌬 You have to read it. It's really good.

Warrior cats 🐈

Wings of fire (WinterMoon)

Lunar Cronicles 🌙

The Inheritance Cycle 🐉

Five Kingdom series ☁️ 📱 😔

Six of Crows 🐦

Seasparrow 🧊

Keeper of the Lost cities (Sokeefe)

Percy jackson/Heros of Olympus/ Trials of Apollo 🌩 🌞 💧 ❤️ 🏹 👑

Serafina 🐈

Willa of the Wood 🌲 🪴

Dealing with Dragons 🐉

Six Crimson Cranes 🐦 🌙

The Sun and the Star 🌞 🌟 🤩

Heartless ❤️ 😔

The School of Good and Evil 👍

The Lord of The Rings 💍🌳🧝‍♀️

I'm in so many fandoms I don't know what to do about it.

❤️Favorite ships🚢

Will x Lark (legendborn) 🫖🏳️‍🌈 (pls I need it to happen to be happy) *if it doesn't I will be on the news* Literally the only ship I'm a diehard fan of

Wintermoon (wof) ❄️🌙😭 For an entire summer I was heartbroken that moon didn't choose winter

Solangelo (pj,hoo,toa) ☀️☠️

BristleRoot (warrior cats) 🌳❄️😭😭😭😭

Patroclus x Achilles (SoA) 😢😢😢😊

Mendenbar x Cimorene (DwD) 🥮⚔️

Jesper x Wylan (SoC) ◼️

Kaz x Inej 🤚🦯▫️.....

Eternal Sugar x Me 💖

Aurora ships incoming?..

Falst x Dainix 🐈 🔥 (cat boi and fire demon)

😍 Favorite Characters ✨️

Silent salt cookie ( just so tragic and noble even when he killed all those people)

Jayfeather (my sassy blind boi. I just love him and his character arc. And oh my god his writing is the best for any character I have ever read. When he dies I will actually be crying for fucking weeks)

Kaz (no mourners, no funerals)

Will (tea, healing, best supporting character ever, the writing is so well done. Lark understand you do well and you deserve each other)

Lark (yes, I am making you be with Will, You better not fucking die and the full confession scene better be the most fluffiest scene i've ever read in a book or I WILL RIOT!) *Legendborn*

Erin (I have never wanted to know a backstory as much as this. I NEED TO SEE HIS TRAUMA) *He's such a snobby idiot* TATTOOS

Jax (I'm sorry, but i'm a sucker for complex tragic femboy characters and right now i'm deeply sad about what happened to them and don't know what to do with this sadness)

Falst (oh my god someone help him, pls, he needs it)

Golden Cheese cookie (divine radiance, my queen, wife #1, probably the most tragic of the ancients)

Shadow milk cookie (terrible cookie, but wow do I love the writing and nuance of his character...I hate him too...like seriously hate him for killing my husband and wife)

Eternal Sugar Cookie (her design is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen and while her story is good it's mainly because of her beauty)

Winter (I wish Moon went with you, and your so misunderstood. I do believe that you can change and be better. I have faith in you. My OG angsty character)

Graywing (spoilers-damn you for dying. The last quote of the book still gets me. "I have traveled so far and loved so much. Yet I am still following the sun trail to my new hunting grounds" )

Bristlefrost (spoilers - also damn you for dying forever. I read her death scene in a tamale shop. So I was just sniffling into the tamales...it took a long time for me to get over her death)

Mordecai (It's always the ones that I want to break...he's so mysterious ..idk) 🐈

Rocky ( I mean who couldn't not like this character. So...chaotic...)

CIRCE 🐖 🌼 ( Woman)

Pike Trickfoot (just yes)

Nott the Brave (chaotic little devil goblin with a drinking problem. I find this one being one of my favorites interesting, but I really just love her)

Jester Lavorre (yes, more chaos, little sweetheart)

Mollymauk *Molly* Tealeaf( I mean, I think it's just the whole...vibe..✨️)

The 10th Doctor (I ...just... so much complexity...loneliness...letting go...immortality...love...timelord victorious...he doesn't want to go)

*Shows*

The Legend of Vox Machina

The Mighty Nein (bro it's so different from Vox machina and i'm really obsessed with it)

Lackadaisy 🐈 (MD, Tadc, etc...)(just finished tadc finale...probably had the best scene i've ever seen in my life)

Little House on The Prairie(some heart wrenchers...Sylvia, I'll be waving as you drive away, May we make them proud, Home again, look back to yesterday, the Craftsmen...and yes my favorite chracter is albert)

Good Omens (oh my god my heart was torn to shreds, but what is this british humour?) season finale sucked though

Doctor Who (currently watching...it has really profound moments and some why moments. I just watched a very devastating episode from it)

My reaction log: Finished season 4...oh my ..my heart..oh god. My eyes... there... watery..i didn't know they could do that anymore. Damn i'm..i'm not even a third of the way through it all.

Finished the "specials"..oh why...why hurt me like this? How do I even go on to the next era. The writting was sooo good. The concepts. The closure. The commentary. The subtle tragedy....damn..I don't want children, but I think it would be nice to have someone to show all the stories I like as they grow up)

Old Sitcoms/Comedies (Jeffersons, All in the family, different strokes...)

Smosh (pit, games, cast)

More hyperfixations

Russian culture

Plane crashes

Pusheens

Ancient Greek and Norse mythos

Favorite character...tropes?

I like characters that have such an interesting personality that is clearly because of some tragic backstory, but the backstory takes forever to be revealed, so it leaves you to make theories about what could have possibly made them this way. And if it is revealed, it's at the most dramatic moment when they are forced to show their true feelings. And the story is so sad you just wish you could go into the story and comfort them. Examples include almost any beast, crk character, erin, falst, and Caleb widogast. I love it when the characters are forced to reveal their feelings when they are broken.

However, I also love it when the tragedy of their character is revealed in a slow burn too. It's more nuanced and subtle if it's done correctly. Learning bits of their life grasps you into the story because it makes you want answers. It also helps you focus more on othwe storylines instead of just a build up to the big reveal of their backstory. Sometimes I like when it's hinted of some tragedy by you never get told it. It makes you think about the story more.

Sassy characters. The characters that have confidence to just do nonsense shit but still have it make sensw in the end.

Ships where the characters actually form their bond because they want to actually understand each other. Will x Lark... I swear it better happen because the build up and moments have been so good.

Characters that keep having tragic things happen to them over and over again. Silent salt 😢 😭

That super kind character who has many good reasons for being that way and many bad reasons for being that way.

I love is when characters do good things but not always because of good reasons. Or even just ideas that are similiar to that concept. The juxtaposition adds so much complexity to the character.

Fantasy based tattoos, but like not everywhere

Curly and floofy hair. I love curly hair. It's so pretty. It must be really tangled though.

The calm moments after all the drama in the story where the characters just talk to each other a lot and reveal little bits about themselves or learn new things.

When you can actually see how much the character has changed because many things have happened. There ideologies are so different from how they thought of things in the start. I especially like it if their are various complex reasons for there change of character.

Immersive stories

I love that if you watch or read a lot of stories and also keep track of projects made by their fandoms, a lot of them are connected through people.

I think the greatest accomplishment in the world is to have been a inspiration for others. There is nothing I can think of that can top that.

And now a ... poem...

"A story is more than just ink on paper. It is a world weaved together so vast that you feel like you are a part of its wonders. Characters are crafted with goals, pasts, mysteries, flaws, and charms. They feel so real in your head that you grow to adore them. A plot unravels, taking you on an adventure that goes on forever. And scenes leave you at the edge of a cliff to ponder what could possibly come next. A story is an experience. It makes you feel alive. It makes you feel exhilaration, vexed, grievous, and empty. It makes you root for characters and hope for somber moments and connections beneath the light of adventure. It is a place to discover the hidden valleys and starlight lakes.... and when it is done, it leaves you with profound emptiness because that world that felt so real, the characters that became your friends, are not real. And all stories come to an end. I may forget much from a story over time, but I will never forget how it made me feel and the adventures I had. The ideas and experiences they bestowed upon me will be carried on with me in my own journey. I know that I have found a story I love when all I crave for is more from that world. "

- Atocatnow