Something less than great.

My dog has gotten me through more emotions than any human ever could imagine. Thanks for being you dog. 

When you’re having one of those days where you hate everything and everyone. 

I tried to make a to do list so that I could be more organized while I finished out the semester. It ended up just stressing me out more. 

I have my EMS Supervisor interview in less than an hour, and I have never been more nervous for an interview! UGH! I just want the job! 

At no point in my life did I think I was going to be doing Quantum Physics, Mechanics and Energy... and understanding it. Oh Hey, Finals. You're going to die. 

I don't want to be in Syracuse anymore. I don't really want to be anywhere anymore, but I don't necessarily have a choice. 

Sometimes, I wish I could keep my shit together. I haven't gone a day this week without a breakdown. Sometimes everything just becomes too much all at once. Sometimes everything just disappears all at once too. I'm trying to get my life together, I really am. It just isn't working. I'm a great kid, I do everything in my day to help other people. I do everything I can to make someone happy, even if I'm having the worst day of my life and just hide it. I'm smart way smarter than I'll ever admit. I'm very personable. Fuck, I'm even attractive. But still - I can't find happiness. I don't remember what happiness is. I honestly don't. I just want the tears to stop. 

My cat just decided that a litter box wasn't for him and that the floor was a better option. Then he decided to knock the hamper over into it. I'm really just not happy right now.