heyy!! see I m alivve, kinda cool huh?

Wake up the last time,

Have my coffee in the bed.

Will look around for a while,

Try to find my ground.

Then I will prepare, to get lost,

so that I can be found.

I will get High,

so I forget I am low.

I will kiss the walls goodbye.

For they were my only door.

To a realm of safety.

And no hope.

They 'll come to take my life.

Not that I am afraid of them.

But what they hold.

I 'll head to the kitchen.

Grab the knife.

With blood in my eyes.

And a smile,

Will take my life.

Fuck me not, Universe.

I cannot find what I seek.

Neither here nor there.

If it exists then, where?

Should I stop searching?

God says 'No'

For they are wise and lovely.

And, 'giving up' is devil's thought.

What is it that I search for?

I am too old to remember.

Will it do any better?

For if it is, good. Why is the path so cruel?

It's time now.

I will be lost too.

Follow me not.

For I couldn't find what I need.

But none, at all,

To which I could hold to,

And live till the end.

I was alone, with many.

I didn't knew why.

There was everything for me.

Then why did I cry?

I loved you.

You made me high.

It was all a lie.

But it helped me live, and not die.

There is still time.

Slowly fading in there.

Might I find something.

The warmth of the blanket and that of the songs.

Found myself

Found the meaning of it all

Then I lost it, what a freak!

It was good while I had it, though I never had it at all.

Thanks for the memories, for the taste of love.

For all the questions, I would have never thought.

For the good that I never deserved. For the care no blood ever spared.

For the recipes I would never have tried.

To find a new world, maybe you have to have lost one. Maybe you have to be lost. The dance of renewal, the dance that made world, was always danced here at the edge of things, on the brink, on the foggy coast.