Sister of the Moon

The nakedness of growing older; the unadulterated fear. You burden the revelation of Death being only a whisper away, a fracture in time, a distant friend waiting on the porch swing. Sometimes it digs its claws into a loved one, a friend, and you’re left reeling and shaken with their absence that once filled rooms, filled you with laughter. Time unwinds with days of unrelenting joy and marvel for life and matches it with days so dull and dark you forget it’s temporary. You give love unconditionally and feel the pain as they give it terms. It questions your inner child, your sanity, your growth, your healing- and wait as it gifts you clarity. You ache for your family, burden the pain they feel; grapple with the disappointment you hope you doesn’t show up at your doorstep. Through it all, though, you relish the moments you do have. You take a second for the sun, lift your arms with the wind, let music fill you with a white light that could run a whole city. You breathe, you sob till it cracks your chest in half and there’s no tears left, only broken sounds. You dance, you embrace, and most of all you stay open because with that naked, dreadful revelation that life is devastatingly fleeting, you didn’t live it closed, bitter, and unforgiving. 

The nakedness of growing older; the unadulterated fear. You burden the revelation of Death being only a whisper away, a fracture in time, a distant friend waiting on the porch swing. Sometimes it digs its claws into a loved one, a friend, and you’re left reeling and shaken with their absence that once filled rooms, filled you with laughter. Time unwinds with days of unrelenting joy and marvel for life and matches it with days so dull and dark you forget it’s temporary. You give love unconditionally and feel the pain as they give it terms. It questions your inner child, your sanity, your growth, your healing- and wait as it gifts you clarity. You ache for your family, burden the pain they feel; grapple with the disappointment you hope you doesn’t show up at your doorstep. Through it all, though, you relish the moments you do have. You take a second for the sun, lift your arms with the wind, let music fill you with a white light that could run a whole city. You breathe, you sob till it cracks your chest in half and there’s no tears left, only broken sounds. You dance, you embrace, and most of all you stay open because with that naked, dreadful revelation that life is devastatingly fleeting, you didn’t live it closed, bitter, and unforgiving. 

There’s something about being wanted by someone who has someone else in their corner. Maybe it’s the ego stroke or the challenge, but it almost drives you more mad than you seem to make them. It can be like a drug- and then you get addicted to the attention they give you, drink up the words they craft just right to keep you around. You pick excuses like they’re growing in an endless garden just to tell yourself it’s okay and that you’ll be okay, it’ll all work out, maybe even in your favor. Maybe they’ll leave them for you. And it’s that ugly, dark gut feeling you have because you know they won’t. It infiltrates like spilled black ink and leaves you so bitter you hardly recognize yourself- and not only does the anger and resentment grow for them, but you start to hate yourself a little too, because why can’t you just let go? You’ll go through these emotions, each one so vastly different but you’ll come out the other side. Because even though you feel like you’ve lost a part of yourself, it’s almost like you’re simultaneously stronger than you’ve ever been when you have this revelation- you deserve so much more. Not someone who belongs to someone else. You’re a whole and you deserve every bit of love another has to give, never half, or even almost all- but not really. You teach others how you should be treated. You set the tone. So pick yourself and all the grief you carry up and run. Roll down a hill, stare at the sun, breathe in the salty air, because you’ll start a new chapter with someone more important than anyone else. You. 

They got bored after the chase: Aries, GEMINI, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Aquarius 

Fear of rejection and being hurt so pushing you away is easier: Leo, Libra, Taurus, Capricorn

They made up an excuse in their head that has yet to happen: CANCER, Virgo,  Pisces

Venus in Gemini is dressed in light summer clothes and hard-shaped sunglasses, driving freely around town as she transits from one social circle to the next, all the while distributing clever smiles and casting charms along the way. The wind blows warm and dances hapilly in her hair, whispering giggling airy messages at the base of her ear. Here, the air sparkles with the sweet sound of waving palm trees.

Venus in Gemini values being able to communicate with many kinds of people, exchanging ideas in a playful tone. This is where Venus discovers her curiosity for other people’s universe, generally producing an individual that is interested in getting to know other people’s tastes and stories, as they enjoy gathering and distributing twinkling shards of precious everyday life information. Rather talkative and fluent, Venus in Gemini relishes in having large groups of friends, enrichening her intellectual variety and experience with others.

In Mercury’s realm, Venus also finds that she appreciates travelling, which allows her to get in contact with more and more different people from distinct places and origins, although she’s often found quickly returning home after being away for some time, unlike what can be observed when Venus is found in Sagittarius. Those with Venus in Gemini are interested in other people’s ideas, associating the concepts of beauty and harmony with brilliant and inventive minds.

Adaptable and flexible, Venus in Gemini has a rather versatile personality. She represents the appreciation for the infinite possibilities the world holds within its wondrous immensity, the love for each exciting potential outcome, and this is a reflection of her changeable inner nature, which manifests as ever-changing tastes and dynamic relationships. Being free and sharing knowledge is a keypoint here, as individuals with this placement fall for anything that introduces unexpected teachings in their lives, rejoicing at the start of each breathtaking new phase.