Alaina

the way these specific chiikawa and hachiware plush designs look like they're cosplaying sheriarty.......

oh anon. stepping right into my hell pit. ok. ok. lets think together in this hypothetical (real life) of them being lesbians / sapphics / etc. (ill use she/him pronouns for them #yay) (this is just me rambling so it's possible my ideas won't align with yours or anybody else's and that's chill as fuck i think. ok. and its long as fuck cause god forbid i know to shut up man. man. whatever.) i want to dwell more into how i see butch paddy. paddy mayne i believe is a butch but he in particular would lean more into what is 'traditional' and appearance commonality in men, social even, he'd lean hardcore into masculine but he also would lean into referring to himself with 'man' 'guy' etc. he'd find immense appeal to the masculine. like on a real note masc ≠ men it's just that he has an like. affinity to connect the two as close as possible while denying the role of men within it. like its that rebellious aspect just turned the fuck up. butch4butch king. i think he would be the most genderqueer about it but i also think he'd sort of want other butches around her to be even more masc, to be similar if not exact like him. cause a big part of his characterization is the whole like. note of othering he does and how he sees people and how that gets put into question and just. everything. the way he compares and asserts what he deems / wants. he's not socially intoned and he's very like. not as socialized with other people as he could be - but he also immensely KNOWS people and what he SEES of people. actions are easier. words are easier. but having to contribute himself or indulge in communication or communion that isn't just focusing on war itself or 'madness' or pure wild soldier behavior he just straight up doesn't enjoy. he doesn't WANT to be like the rest of majors and the posh soldiers he knows / hears from / experiences. this is all connecting to his appeal of traditionally masculine things imo!! not to mention the escape from societal expectation JUST so he could be 'mad' as he is made to be. not to mention the sheer expertise of having to be apart of 'higher ranked' social groups and 'role in war' and to still be herself regardless!! to still not 'fall in line' and fake to like it how everyone else does. granted its more a focus to do in the sas but like, he is the most known for it / it's his whole ordeal when other militia men are speaking about him. eoin mcgonigal would be butch, i don't think he would resonate w femme at all, i do think COMPARED to paddy she would seem "less butch like" but she genuinely would be equal as fuck with paddy on the butch scale. they're the same to me. i think he'd resonate w handsomeness and prettiness unlike paddy though. i think he could be a dead wife to paddy but it to not revoke his butchness. also in the last instance we see eoin (in paddys hallucinations / imaginations / etc. basically how paddy imagines him) we see him with facial hair - and paddy in my mind is #traditional.. so i do think this could deadass correlate to paddy masculinizing eoin in his vision of him. augustin jordan would be a futch. i can see it now. to me he's very middle ground or no ground as a whole in identity (i hc him as nonbinary). politics wise, i absolutely think he would connect to both and also would want to fulfil both of those roles within butchfemme dynamics / circles. i can see her genuinely balancing on either identities be it femme or butch and a concoction of both or 'neither'. like he could indulge in both. he would identity with futch with like, casualness and contentment. smoke lingering.

Dear Emma, I wanted to write this to you, I wanted to say this to you while I still have as much of me as I do. […] So I wanted to come out here while it’s still quiet so that I could look you in the eye in case— before I’m all gone and tell you that you are the love of my life because you make me laugh every day and you make my life worth living and you make me feel like I’m not alone. And if things were normal, then you’d be the person that’d make it okay that I gotta grow old and die someday because at least I got to spend some of that time with you. But things aren’t normal and so I guess instead, or as well, I love you because you stayed. Because when things got scary you knuckled down and you stayed. And you got me through each day. And I hope I did the same for you, or I hope that I can still do the same for you somehow.

Mary's style evolving and becoming brighter as she evolves while living in London! THE OTHER BENNET SISTER (2026)

"You can ask me, you know--what you’ve been wanting to ask since you shot that soldier. You’re not nearly as mysterious as you assume." "When you killed for the first time…how did you feel?" "A great weight on my chest, pressing harder every day so I can hardly breathe. And now, I live with it."

I listened to the first 10 episodes of Turpin today because Dónal is the lead, obviously, but also because I grew up listening to audio dramas and radio plays, so this is very much my thing anyway.

I do think audio drama can take a minute to adjust to if you’re not used to it. Without any visuals, the performances and sound design have to do absolutely everything: the action, the setting, the atmosphere, even the things a character would normally communicate with a look or a tiny movement. So it can sound a little heightened at first, but I think you just have to meet it on its own terms and lean into it.

And Turpin makes that very easy. The cast are excellent (Dónal especially, obvs) and the sound design is wonderful. It feels really vivid and atmospheric without ever becoming hard to follow. A solid listen I enjoyed it very much!

Can't believe I have to wait till November for the rest of it.

The 15 min teaser is definitely worth a listen to see if it's your thing: https://on.soundcloud.com/1EDtq8izGRNxOLiT0o

Also attached the tiny bit from Dónal from the supplementary interviews 💚

Pride & Prejudice (2005) The Other Bennet Sister (2026)