* 𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄 !

               ❝ Don’t you fuckin’ DARE. ❞ The shift is palpable, and it happens almost in an instant when she mentions the police. James has never been good at hiding his emotions in the best of times, and the smirk suddenly disappears from his face, replaced by a look of pure terror. When he gets scared, he gets aggressive, and that’s never a good combination. ❝ Listen, Ally, I’d rather blow my fuckin’ brains out instead of goin’ back there. ❞ He never quite elaborates where “there” is, but it’s clear that he has a hatred of that place. James paces back and forth, obviously agitated at the mention of the police.                ❝ Five months of my fuckin’ life— you know how long five months is? ❞ His voice starts to crack, against his own will, because he realizes he hasn’t talked about this in ten years and he’s never worked through the trauma of this experience, he’s just repressed it. ❝ You ever been inside one of those fuckin’… prisons, mate? No, you obviously haven’t, ‘cause— fuck’s sake, you don’t know, you have no clue what it’s like. Fuckin’ cunts in white coats pacing about with their clipboards thinkin’ they’re above you ‘cause you’re some kind of a fuckin’ loony. ‘Cause they said so, and you don’t get a say, ‘cause you’re FUCKED UP in the head! And they push these pills on you, and you don’t get a choice whether or not you wanna take ‘em, and, and— ❞ James looks as if he may fall apart at any moment. ❝ What the fuck do you want from me, Ally? ❞

EXPRESSION ON HER FACE BEGINS TO SOFTEN AT HIS REACTION. ally’s come to see the pure panic on various faces over the years at the mention of getting treatment. no matter how many times she’s been in that position before and had to be the one to put her foot down for the sake of her own relationships, having someone react that negatively to such a threat wasn’t a reaction that she was able to get used to. arms cross against her chest at his defiance about getting the help james so desperately needs. she doesn’t bother to respond to his comment, however, not wanting to give him the satisfaction of acknowledgement. if anything, his words could be used to only further prove her point.

@without-an-alibi​ interviewed ally: ❛ Sometimes you don’t get another chance, you know, to-to fix the mistake. ❜ {I'd say bring on the angst}

THERE’S ONLY SO MUCH ONE PERSON COULD TAKE. sick and tired of all the bullshit excuses that came from her husbands mouth, she can’t even bare to look at him in the hospital bed that cradled his weakened frame. there’s a part of her that doesn’t even recognize him as the man that she married—— but jackson was right. not everyone got a second chance to fix their mistakes and that kills ally on the inside. she didn’t even want to think about what could happen in the near future if jackson’s mistake of drinking heavily all those years ( damaging his kidneys in the process ) couldn’t be fixed. she needed him to be fixed.