Sabs

I have given everything I have to make everyone happy including the only person I care about. I'm just not enough and I have to accept it. Not every life is valuable. We are just shadows that will fade into the background. I truly provide nothing to society or my loved ones.

People say "don't do it people love you and care". They say this on the internet but they don't know you. You don't even exist to them. You kill yourself and they don't know. Their heart will not move for you if they even found out. I know that no one will care. My family may have a funeral as a formality. My mother and father may cry but I know they would be happy and just use my death to support their beliefs about me. My siblings would be there but will not be moved. How can you be when you have no connection with the deceased besides your bloodline? Anyone not family that would attend, well life moves on and they forget you.

In reality you either make history or you just take up oxygen that can be used for a better purpose. I would say I am but just a shadow but even then that means I have been seen. Who I am is invisible and not even felt in the air.

It is time to find that end solution so the earth can be a better place for it. Allow me to do one good, final act by ending it for everyone.

I want to fucking kill myself

I want to jump under a bus

I want to throw myself off a building

I don't want to be alive

I never chose to be alive

I hate being alive because I get no fucking joy or happiness out of it

I fucking don't want to be here