[Continued from here: https://askbarnum.tumblr.com/post/631541586248040448/the-tension-visibly-leaves-his-shoulders-as-they]
*The tension visibly leaves his shoulders as they talk, and after a moment he chuckles a little awkwardly and refills Lettie's glass and his
No concerns needed here, Mr. Barnum.
*Shrugs.*
I, personally, donāt feel much of an attraction to anyone, one way or the other, but youāre not exactly hard to look at. Anyone with eyes can see that. Any person, man, woman, or otherwise, would be lucky to have you.
*Chuckles.*
And now, perhaps, I need to evaluate the fact that I work in such a place where I can tell my male boss that he is quite handsome, and not get thrown to the curb because of it.
*Falls silent as he listens to Barnumās tale. Hums a little at the end.*
I suppose that if Carlyle were still with my sister, Iād have to be wary of you trying anything while they were still together. But... I havenāt been explicitly told anything, but I suspect that the sun set on that quite awhile ago now,
Your secretās safe with us, Barnum.
*Makes a move to retrieve the box of truffles. Speaks, teasingly.*
Are we to find anymore sketches over here?
*In a moment of seriousness, he hesitates a little, then cautiously adds:*
I could be over-analyzing things, so donāt take this in haste. But, Iām quite sure Iāve seen Carlyle looking at you, too.
*She turns on the couch so that her back leans against the arm and kicks her feet up on WDs lap, stealing a chocolate from the box and looking very pleased as she makes herself comfortable and pops the sweet in her mouth*
Carlyle is a tricky one to read. I've always had an inkling he might be accustomed to that side of society, but he was also pretty head over heals for Anne for a while, you all saw how he was. I mean he seems pretty close and personal with you, but it could also be that he just ain't sure what the boundaries of friendship are. The upper folk seem to get pretty touchy feely in some circles.
*She finishes her chocolate and downs the shot, holding out an open palm to WD for him to pass her another*
Either way, I'd break it to him gently. Don't wanna frighten the kid off if he doesn't swing that way. We kinda like having him around.
*She laughs softly as she kicks off her shoes, comfortably tipsy and rather tired in the warmth of the cozy room*
You should put some of those sketches of yours on a few of the posters. We'd start getting a whole new audience. We could start doing some after hours performances.
*Chuckling, he kicks his shoes off to warm his socked feet by the fire*
Thank you, glad to know I still have my good looks.
*Subconciously he moves a hand to touch the creased skin around his eye and feels his smile falter slightly. He finishes his shot and puts down the glass on the arm of the chair, looking thoughtful*
Ah, even if he did swing that way, Phil is a younger man. He's in his prime, he'll be wanting to settle down with a wife who can take care of him and start a family soon. It's just a stage of life gentlemen are expected to go through. I've already lived through all that, I couldn't take it away from him. Raising my girls has been some of the happiest years of my life, Phillip will be a great father to a child someday.
I'm fine with remaining friends, perhaps I could even be a fun uncle to his own kids in the future. I simply need to get my head out of the clouds and rein back my desires a bit. You know how it is when you take a fancy with someone, your emotions simply get jumbled. It'll fade eventually I'm sure of it.
I won't scare the poor man off, if that fire didn't kill his enthusiasm for this place I don't think anything could. The worst that will happen is that things will feel a bit uncomfortable for a while, but I'm confident that our friendship could survive the hit. Just need to find an appropriate time and place to talk to him about it, I wouldn't feel right fantasizing about a life with someone when they havn't the faintest idea I'm doing so, it seems a touch creepy even to me.
*After a while he stands and stretches, moving over to take a chocolate from the box and toss it in his mouth theatrically. Slowly he heads over to a cupboard and rummages through a trunk inside, taking out a couple of heavy knitted blankets. He tosses one at WD and brings the other over to lay over Lettie more gently.*
You're welcome to stay here if you don't fancy the cold walk back to the caravans. I doubt the couches are any worse than some of the cots backstage I've seen folk napping on. There's a chamber pot in that closet, a wash basin on the counter, and spare candles under the couch in the tray. Just don't be rummaging through any more of my private possessions, alright?
*Reaches over, as Lettie settles, to pop a chocolate into his mouth. Closes his eyes and lets it melt on his tongue.*
Mmm. I canāt tell you the last time I had real chocolate.
Lettieās got a point, though. Iāve seen him eye you before, but it could be that he just doesnāt know what crosses the platonic lines. I donāt believe Carlyle to be dumb or slow at all, but he can have that naivety caused by his upbringing. Heās hardly to blame though, he canāt help the fact he was sheltered so much.
*Grins*
Until you came along, that is. Youāve corrupted us all, Mr. Barnum.
*Shrugs out of his jacket, draping it over the couch, and slips out of his shoes.*
I would simply... explore with caution. Youāve a habit of jumping in too soon, Barnum, and sometimes that does work... but this could blow up in your face. Youāre right about not wanting to scare him off. Stick a toe in, test the waters, but donāt... dive right in. I donāt believe Carlyle capable of lashing out against you, but itās best to be safe than to be sorry.
*Raises a brow.*
And, check how things are with Anne. I donāt have anything against you exploring a relationship with anybody, man or woman, but if that somebody could potentially still be with my sister... I donāt want to have to go against my boss because he upset her.
*Falls silent for awhile. Almost subconsciously, hardly aware heās even doing it, he starts to rub Lettieās feet.*
*Speaks again, almost thoughtfully and to himself, but just loud enough for Barnum and Lettie to hear.*
If things are all clear with Carlyle, and it turns out that he does harbor similar feelings as you, I honestly donāt think the age thing would be as big of an issue as you think it is.
*She settles down comfortably, shuffling the blanket around her and letting her eyes drift closed as WD rubs her achy feet. While listening to the two of them she let's out a fond laugh and cracks open an eye only to give WD a snarky grin*
Carlyle? Sheltered? The kid might be sweet as sugar but underneath that candy coating is a man who's been whoring it around for years. Trust me, I know one when I see one. He was all over the rags a few years ago, New Yorks favourite scandal right before Barnum entered the scene. Hottest player in town, there were rumours of him stumbling from strangers houses without trousers every other night. I don't know how much of it's true, you know how the papers are; but there's a good reason I was playing protective mama bird to Annie those first few weeks until we got to know the kid better.
*She shuffles to position a cushion behind her head and let's her eyes drift shut again*
Naive my ass. That's just his act, honey.
To his credit it seems pretty obvious he's turned over a new leaf.
*She snorts softly and stretches*
This couch isn't half bad. I hope we're getting a five star breakfast in bed come morning.
*Squeezing the bridge of his nose with his thumb and forefinger he sighs heavily before giving WD a world weary look, muttering sarcastically.*
Thank you for the boost of confidence.
*He leaves the room for several minutes, returning in his nightshirt and rummaging for a book nonchalantly on one of his many bookshelves. He takes out a pretty looking green hardback and begins searching the messy surfaces for something, squinting in the dim candle light*
I wouldn't concern yourself with that. I am fairly confident that Phil and Anne are no longer seeing eachother in the romantic sense. After that morning they 'talked' he sent the entire afternoon pretending he had a cold so I wouldn't think he was sniffling hunched over his paperwork.
Of course I'll talk to Anne if it makes you feel more confident, but I'm not going to go into any detail. The less people know about my interests the better, and I'm certainly going to be less willing to discus this situation once I've sobered up a bit.
*Making a sudden pleased hum, he finds a pair of reading spectacles under a pile of letters on the coffee table and hangs them on the neck of his nightshirt before moving over to lean against the bedroom door*
I doubt there is a future in that regards for myself and Phil. Lettie is right, he's likely been with every woman of the highest elite, he's a young, handsome bachelor. He could get with anyone in the city he wanted. I'm not saying I'm not a catch myself, you should see some of the explicit fan mail I'm sent; but I am an older, divorced man reaching my middle ages. I can't offer him children, I can't even marry the man. It's a ridiculous sentiment to even think about. It wouldn't be a good path for him even if he didn't recoil from the idea.
It's a fleeting crush, that's all it is. Every man grow smitten on the occasion there's nothing wrong with it.
I'll take him out to the music hall or something, perhaps dinner; tell him the truth, break it to him gently just so he knows and my mind is at rest, then I'll work on getting over it.
*He waves a hand dismissivelly*
Do douse that fire before you fall asleep. I'd like to not loose my Circus and home a second time.
*Shutting the door behind him he heads to bed, leaving the two of them in peace*
*Laughs at Lettieās remark.*
Excuse me, I should have been more clear. Iāve no doubt in my mind heās got his experiences charming the women, and other men, in this city. But, Iād bet money that not much of that was anything beyond one or two nights of lust. Iām quite certain that his relationship with Anne is ā was ā one of the first formal relationships heās entered... of his own will, that is. Courting attempts set up by suffocating parents hardly count.
*Heās barely finished his talk when heās aback by Barnumās defensiveness. All humor leaves him, and he purses his lips together.*
I mean no harm, Mr. Barnum. Iām beyond positive youād never intend to hurt either of them. Iām simply looking out for my sister, because I love her. As, Iām sure, you will when Caroline and Helen become of courting age.
You do not have to let Anne know of your preferences unless you wish to. I would never ask that of you, Mr. Barnum, and you have my word that I will not bring this up to her unless you decide to first, or otherwise give me permission.
*Falls silent as he watches Barnum go into his room. When the door shuts, he sighs, and looks into the flickering flames of the fireplace.*
He truly is worried about this, isnāt he? I never meant him any harm... I just donāt want to see anyone get hurt because of some miscommunication.
*Looks at Lettie.*
Iāve never seen him like this. The fire was... a different kind of stress. I hope heās all right.
*Letās out a long sigh, stretching out his legs and letting his head loll onto the back of the couch. Stays like that for a moment, then moves to the couch that Lettie does not occupy. When he speaks, he tries to lighten the mood a little, a teasing lilt to his voice.*
Iām not sure if sharing couches between unmarried men and women is the same as sharing beds, but Iād rather not be struck down by the hand of God tonight.
*She stretches out on the couch as WD shifts to the other, shuffling a cushion to prop up her shoulders*
Ah don't get your knickers in a twist, he'll be fine. You know he's just a bit more fragile than usual when he's drunk, by morning he'll be back to having an ego the size of New York like always.
*She gently tosses a cushion at WDs head with a grin*
You know he'd never do anything to hurt Anne.
*She steals WDs glass of water from the table and takes a sip before reluctantly stretching and sitting up. It's a few more minutes before she wearily stands and moves to douse the fire, plunging the room into near darkness except for the single lit candle on the coffee table. She uses it's meager light to navigate her way back to the couch and settle down*
He was doing better before the whole situation with his wife, maybe it was just one load too many. He'll find love again and be back to normal in no time, trust me. Soppy boys, the both of 'em. If they don't end up with eachother they'll only end up unbearably head over heals for someone else.
Men, they fall in and out of love so often I'm suprised they don't get motion sick from it all.
*She chuckles and turns over to blow out the candle*
C'ept you, you're a special case. A true gentleman though, I'll give you that. When you do find a lady to your tastes, she'll be a lucky one.













