ITS BACK

“It has to be done, Chris.”

And then to see Alex collapse right in front of Chris, having a panic attack after vomiting up blood, shaking and sobbing and mumbling about how things weren’t going to be okay. Chris having to frantically tell him to calm down, to breathe, reassuring him over and over until the distortion dissipates and Alex’s breathing evens out.

Noah’s quiet, “I don’t know what to say.” in response to what Chris showed him, and Chris replying, “…Me neither.”

Heather screaming in agony, sinking in and out of consciousness, and Chris telling the others that it was going to be okay. And then adding quietly, in a broken whimper, “it has to be okay.”

But then the little moment between Heather and Chris, where they’re stuck, and Chris is talking to Alex on the phone, who says something so obscenely stupid it causes Chris to snap irritably. But then Heather starts laughing at the absurdity, and you can visibly see Chris relax a little and chuckle a little too.

Heather quietly asking Chris if he’s ever thought about suicide, and him going incredibly quiet. Then, him admitting that he was only staying alive because he was scared, and he needed to protect them.

chris: