Natalya Arlovskaya

No idea. It just started trailing me one day..

They probably just followed me all the way to Ukraine from my place just now too.

I let it stay and do whatever it wants for the most part..mostly because ghosts are usually like..an arm or leg crawling around? And this is the one of the few whole ones I’ve seen.

I really wanted to know more about them, but it seems they can’t talk at all.

I don’t recognize the clothes....and ghost’s don’t show up in photos clearly, so I can’t really ask anyone about it either...

Oh-! You can see it too? That’s unexpected..

What?..

I don’t spend time with Liechtenstein.

She just occasionally shows up at my place uninvited, often with food.

For so long I’ve been trying to figure out exactly what she merits from it, or if she has any ulterior motive, but I just can’t sense any hostility at all..

I guess the logical thing to assume is that..she wants to be…friends..?

But I don’t understand what exactly she sees in me to want such a thing..

It makes so little sense that I just can’t bring myself to let my guard down around her.

!!! Woah what the fuck..........Sweden?

........Going for a-....old...look..I see.. 

It looks..uh....

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….Truthfully…I don’t..know if I should talk about Ivan when Toris is around.

I hate it, but my brother’s relationship with Toris is probably..even more complicated than my relationship with him..

So, what I’m going to do instead is ask Katyusha if I can live with her for a while. 

I’ll feel less lonely, and actually be around someone I can trust, so that’s already a good start.

After that I’m going to work harder to become stronger, and to move past this whole ordeal by myself.

Starting with getting back into aerobics, regular exercise and self help books..

I know what I did wrong..I guess..

It just confuses me.

I spent my whole life thinking about Ivan, so to have him favor someone else over me so quickly really..did something to me. 

As soon as that happened I couldn’t stand to look Toris in the face anymore, and we stopped being...friends.

And now I don’t really know what else to do?

Ivan was my end goal for so long that I’m just kind of nothing now.

Toris..he still acts like nothing’s wrong..and it pisses me off.

I don’t know what he thinks a relationship with me would give him, and his fervor even frightens me sometimes.

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...Maybe I should have just let it go and forgotten about Ivan when I was little.

...Toris was Ivan’s favorite.

And he was still pursuing me all the while.

....I do..

Basically..Katyusha invited them over for her birthday..which was yesterday..

I was dragged in..we had cake..

And despite my many protests, it was decided they would stay overnight for my birthday today..