Aspire Sugah

Fuck It I lied. Always loved BMWS.

My progress report would be: Needs improvement. 

Sometimes I drift away from this lifestyle as I enjoy and value my alone time from living things which exist. I cannot consider someone elses feelings at times but my own. 

Since I've been getting in tune with my spirituality deeper, I've become disinterested in sexual engagement.  And since no basic male whom I speak to when I'm in the mood for social engagement from the opposite gender is benefiting me in ways that feed my hunger.  I tend to linger back onto the SD scene. Not because I want money well DUH. Since i've isolated myself from giving people my time freely, might as well consider ones who would pay.

I've worked up such an appetite, I need to be fed. I have goals to obtain, living circumstances that need to be improved.

He did his homework.

I told him I enjoy red wine, though he is not much of a drinker he is a collector and enjoys giving them out to friends who wouldn't purchase expensive wines. 

Our dinner date went well. We are both spiritual people so it was quite magnetic and funny. There was an attraction, and the conversation was nice, he wants to see more of me. I'm glad things worked out for the both of us.

I met with a computer techie tonight, he looked exactly like he did in his picture and on his linked in. 

Innocent, easy on the eyes type of look.

We met at his work place, where it was access pass only after a certain time.

We started out just talking about program softwares and programing in his office. Moments after he took me into an executive room with a sofa, where the ceiling to floor windows overlooked the view of our city (the highway, waterfront, small streets and condos).

When I get asked can you "Host?"

My neighbor needs one of these upside her head.

My sleep was disturbed by Police knocking on the door because my neighbor said "There's a party going on with loud music and weed smoking at my apt #."

BOY! Did the police feel stupid for knocking on my door because my apartment was dead silent, dim lit, and smelt as though someone did a house clean earlier today.

The start of a wonderful conversation with someone off Sugardaddyforme would lead to a helpless romantic and insecure man.

I know usually the question "What do you look for in an SB relationship?" is something to ask within the first few messages or less. However I thought i'd try out something different as I am going through trial and error in learning what works for me and what doesn't.

Either way after a few email exchanges, picture exchange and sweet messages. I thought i'd ask the guy.

His response: "What ever happened to letting things happen naturally, isn't really so twisted these days the any relationship has to have verbally contractual arrangements, sd, sb classifications in order for two people to allow their basic human instincts to thrive, I'm wondering if you had just continued admiring me and me admiring you without any verbal contract, what would have gone wrong, would I got something I didn't deserve or earn, like a kiss, than on the other hand, we make our little agreement,  and then I meet my contractual standard for the day, then I get a kiss, I must ask myself at that point why did I get a kiss, was it real or genuine, or was it part of our contract. Okay like I said I got swept away by your sweetness my bad...what ever you want from me once we meet I will give you and if I'm to make some type of deposit first let me know because you seem to already know what you expect from me for whatever I'm supposed to expect from you, I'm so freaking mentally fricasseed right now I don't know what to do or sat Tara. You are like a dream come true for once, now for some reason none of this whole day seemed to come from your heart. Is there a such thing as a heart, help me."

Am I wrong? I can take honesty.

I met with cutie from MT this afternoon. We grabbed tea from David's and went for a walk while we talked. In a previous conversation we had prior to meeting we spoke light about sexual experiences. Since I had told him I love vibrators but mines was not the greatest. He said he would love to buy me a quality vib. Luckily I picked a tea shop that was close to a sex shop because our stroll led to a sex shop within a 7 minute distance. 

I've got a Skype date this afternoon with a cutie from MissTravel, he seems legit and direct. 

I hope this pulls through because so far I've been getting a lot of half assed males who exchange Skype usernames, then fall short on following through on a Skype chat.