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Haven't continued home practice. Maybe twice a month.

Hard day a Jiu-Jitsu today.

Love how girls, including those dressed like sluts, can judge the motivation of a man looking at them but at the same time refuse to allow anyone to judge their motivation for wearing so clothing.

Started jiujitsui. Kicking my ass.

Btw if he pays u to be his princess, brat, little, whore, whatever, well, you arent really any of those things and he is not really ur daddy.

Up at 5 to do my last session in the shala. Membership expires. Been a good year. The intensity is too much. Being siliebt with myself for so long with my insane thoughts in a room full of shapely bendy women has proven too much. I need out. Hope to continue home practice.

Given new move today. Yay....

Missed 2 poses or positions or oh right asanas today. Like fuck.

Handstand training going well. Probably going to screw my shoulder up because i am fat and wont quit

New hot girl at yoga. I need out of this place. Its too much. Too much chatting. Today someone said someone was tight as in stiff and then all this giggling. Like fuck. I dont need that shit. Why am i such a sick fuck that i sexualize all women. But they were giggling so fuck them. Honestly all of them. Stop talking.

Shala empty today. Spring break vibes.

Skiing kicked my ass. Made me eat. Also partner stress at home. And kids. Did yoga on saturday. Not cool. But was too sore not to. Practice today was ok. Had a new towel. Didnt like it. Fell asleep at the end before meditation because weak. Coildnt get comfy in meditstion because weak. Feel fat.