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““Boys have no idea how long their words can stay in a girls mind.””

“On her worst days I just held her. I know my love won’t cure her depression. But I wanted her to know that she will never fight alone.”

“you know you’re fucked when those late night thoughts start hitting you in the middle of the day”

just because the world can be cold doesn’t mean we have to be.

Sometimes I think we get caught up in the momentum of things because it’s easier to let it carry us than it is to stop and deal with our pain. We keep busy, keep distracted, keep pretending things are fine so we don’t have to face what has happened and accept it. The momentum of everyday life and its commitments keep us moving in a direction we pretend is forward but is really just treading water until we either run out of energy or something forces us to stop and our hidden emotions inevitably drown us. It’s like hiding from yourself within yourself… it’s playing pretend when the truth is so glaringly obvious. You can put on a smiling face and pretend everything’s fine for everybody else – but you can’t lie to yourself for long. Keeping busy can be a positive step towards moving on – but only if you’re doing it for the right reasons… if you’re doing it to avoid acceptance rather than embrace it and move on with your life then you’re only repressing your emotions and eventually you’ll pay a hefty price for it. It’s okay to admit to yourself you’re not okay, you’ve been through a lot and it’s reasonable to take some time to process everything. The whole ‘fake it till you make it’ thing is a great concept when putting on a brave face for others – but you can’t use it on yourself. Pretending you’re okay to other people is one thing – but you still need to accept what’s happened and deal with it internally otherwise you’ll be pretending forever. You know how painful it is to pretend that you’re happy when you’re dying inside… so don’t condemn yourself to a life of it by not acknowledging your inner pain and dealing with it…

When the honeymoon stage ends what happens

You’re more honest with each other. Bodily functions are something to laugh about. Sweatpants and tee shirts are a regular thing. They know what you look like without all the makeup. Being “laid up and watching Netflix” is the only thing you’re looking forward to after work. You don’t go on fancy dates as often but you trade that for quality time. You find yourself being more vulnerable and you open up more. They become your best friend. You will able to talk about anything. You won’t be worried about impressing their parents, you’re just gonna love them anyway regardless of how their parents may feel. You will have inside jokes that no one else will get. Sex is not as often but, twice as passionate. Little fights will happen, but you’ll learn not to sweat the small stuff. You’ll learn what compromise really is about. You’ll dream about the future together. Grow together. Be on each other’s team. See their ugly crying face, and be the one to wipe the tears away & do something stupid to make them life. things are amazing after the honeymoon stage. However, it’s a time about giving up your walls and open up some doors you have locked a long time ago.