Follow your heart and chase your dreams.

I may sad but im not depressed. This time I have holy spirit and I'm not afraid and I'm not stuck this time. He leads me still water.

When comes alive, and not just words on pages in a book and Jesus's words come alive it becomes the most beautiful feeling in the world.

Following and being a true disciple and on fire and in love with Jesus is very interesting. You dont fit into the world but dont fit in with the luke warm. What an interesting dichotomy.

I used to think I was healed but I wasn't.

The most important thing in my experience for trauma healing is trusting and connecting with my therapist.

"Acting like you don’t care is not letting it go." - Penelope Douglas

Do you ever catch yourself being mean for no reason and you’re just like??? go take a nap????

For years I have been fighting and advocating on this small platform for mental illness and fighting to have a way to tell my story that recovery is possible. I have searched my area for years and years with availability. I finally on whim decided to put in a application for a company called nami (national alliance of mental illness) and got an email back. Today I had a meeting and there are finally availabilities and she said she has been looking for people with my specific passion for a while. I happy to say I'm soon going to start training to facilitate classes to people struggling and in the beginning stages of mental illness and give them hope. These are literally the same classes my mom took when I was diagnosed over a decade ago. Life is coming full circle and I'm so emotional right now. I'm hoping and praying this works out and I can finally get my voice out there.

People are like okay I understand your mental illness until you arent in a baseline state and start showing your symptoms that got you diagnosed in the first place. Then they look at you differently and micromanage your every action.

Being mentally ill while chronically is so exhausting and I'm tired.

once you start seeing progress you never wanna stop.

Healthy people who say stuff like “they’re still doing things so they can’t be in THAT much pain” need to understand that after a certain point pain becomes boring. No, you never get used to the pain, but you do gradually become bored. After months or years of mindless suffering in bed eventually you learn how to watch TV, do a light hobby, etc. even while in extreme pain, simply because chronic pain is incredibly dull and humans need entertainment.