songs of the river.

Partner: okay we’ll go

A few hours later

Partner: *after he argues and makes me feel like absolute crap* I don’t wanna go anymore tonight, I’m not in the mood

Me: :| Kay

Partner: but if you want to go I’ll drive you

Me: not to this earlier showing I guess

Me: *finds a later showing and decides to treat myself and take myself out on a date* Can you drive me to this one?

Partner: IM MAD BC WHY DIDNT YOU ASK ME TO GO

*A few hours later*

Partner: gets mad at me for drying my hair as part of my post night shower getting pjs on routine. Hour and a half long argument/discussion/pile on all the grievances and if I defend or explain myself it’s “spinning the argument around” or my trying to share my perspective is horrible and unacceptable and I’m a bad person-session ensues.

Meanwhile it’s known I haven’t been feeling physically well nor mentally well lately. I wanted to go to bed early tonight because of feeling sick and having a lot of housework to do tomorrow. Early was 10:30. It is currently 1:30 and I can’t stop crying (I only got peace like 5-10 mins ago where I can just breathe)