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(Also why a 43 yrs has the face of perhaps a 60 yrs?)

Nothing but hopelessness for the Soviets.

Shostakovich said he felt pain ever thinking about Meyerhold, and that pain remains to this day, not fading, only growing stronger.

I didn't know it would hit this hard.......Oblivion got me cry again on a not so fine Monday night.

It's not the rain but my tear that soaked people of Cyrodiil.

It makes me even more sad because i thought Traven is going to betrayal us, i genuine rather have him betrayal me then die for the cause.

I don't want to be the arch mage this way :(((((((((

And I indeed am accessorising.

Also I like Zeb hehe

Especially when the third movement of five started while im reading the passages about his perspective in empathy, humanity and the burden and responsibility of living. They told me what's behind the music sheets, not just the story, the history but the standard, value and belief that shaped, guided and supported the man Shostakovich became.

When i read here:

The part where he quoted the orthodox chant 'O Lord, save thy people' I think i truly felt that emotion and power brought not by the rhythm of the music or the cultural resonance, but the meaning and spiritual struggle DS is actually going through, about how painful he feels not because of his own misfortune, but everything he had to witness everyday. It brought me to tears not because of how beautiful it is anymore but because of the pain, the depression, and hopelessness he felt. Yet he still prevailed.

Im not going to ramble about how much of a hero he is here because I already did many times lol. I just want to express how and what him a human today. And I want to share another piece that shows that other than his upbringing and personality, who inspired him to be the hope in difficult time:

I call this pic the Assembly of Russian headache composers. (Excuse Mahler's attendance maybe as a moderator. And DS is more troubled by headache than the others

I don't care, I just want to have more time with Crane in 2025.

Like any other main character (MC), he's an absolutely loved boy who's the embodiment of sunshine, love and humanity. An ideal citizen who cares for his community and the well-being of his fellow humans. Dressing nicely, talking tenderly and behaving mannerly. Helping everyone as much as he can and doesn’t ask for anything in return.

But the way he acts and reacts to Sebastiano's 'drifting towards the darkness' (I like and think calling Sebastian this way is funny, and I would like to imagine this as his way of annoying Sebastian.) is very devilish. He is a complete enabler of Sebastiano's unforgiving behaviours. Think of one way but act the other. Tolerating and egging on Sebastiano's way for so little, not entirely high value personal gain (dark magic). Doesn't he need it? No, he's a Ravenclaw, and he knows enough spells to keep himself safe as well as perform justice.

The funniest and the most cruel moment to me is when Sebastian completely lost and killed his uncle with Avada Kedavra, stunned and scared out of his mind, trying to seek affirmation from MC to ease his guilt, and my boy's reaction is like 'Yeah yeah yeah you are absolutely right, you did what you have to do, I would do the same thing (which is a fucking lie), it's absolutely your uncle's fault, he left you with no choice. Now stfu and teach me the spell. (He says with a pleasant smile on his face)' Plus his expression is always smiling and shit, makes his looks even more evil and cruel. Not at all the model, righteous wizard as everyone saw and presumed he is.

My MC practices dark magic daily without any remorse or guilt consciousness, he definitely agrees with some aspects of Sebastiano's logic, but just the way he performs in front of other people compared to his way with Sebastian is so pretentious and disgusting to me. Especially in the later stage of Sebastiano's quest line, the attitude and power shift between him and Sebastian strengthens this canon even more. The desperation of Sebastian, the horror and panic of Ominis vs. the calm and borderline indifferent attitude from MC is so intense, makes my explanation seemingly the only logical way to understand the situation. (But i honesty think the emotionless and lack of response of MC is flaw in game design)

I would wish my very WORST enemy for a friend like this.