A Shameless Ego

I started this blog thirteen months ago to put myself on a better track than the one I had been living. I had just quit a job that made me feel uninspired. I started working full-time at a bar. I started writing. The old enemies of alcohol and self doubt took me over. I kept on as many people do. New friends helped me battle those enemies. Now, I sit down to give this blog the reboot it needed.

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I need to give up Starbucks coffee. Back in January, I mentioned the need to give things up to move forward. It’s like tossing a bag to the side so you can run unencumbered. Now is the time for me to do it again, and that thing has to be my daily Starbucks Trenta iced coffee with two blonde espresso shots soy milk coupled with a blueberry yogurt muffin.

Since the 18th of June, I have spent 80…

My friend and I just had a professional level meeting and I misspoke. It was not bad, the meeting went well overall, but in the end, I made a professional faux pas. I knew better, but words tend to split out in a spat when I’m not focused. This is a problem he tells me a lot. I am not focused, unbalanced. It’s something I definitely need to work on. His suggestion was simple. Create a character.

Life is such an adventure. Even the moments when I’m not rushing from one place to another uniquely feels like it will catapult me somewhere forward into the future. Yesterday, I spent the majority of my time sitting on a couch, and in all honesty, it gave me a calm before the storm vibe of my life. The rain is about to poor, and I need to make sure I’ve tarred this boat to keep the water out.

I…

I keep thinking a lot about where I am at currently. Why? It’s probably because in the last six months so much in my life has changed. My friends here have seen the change happen on a daily basis. However, the people who know me back in South Dakota seem to see this as a very swift change, much like the other unpredictable things I’ve done in the past. That is far from the reality of what…

My Name is Joshua.

Hello all. My name Joshua. Some of you know me already. This being the internet, however, I want to give a reintroduction to exactly who I am. If you do already know me, I’ve changed a lot in the last six months and this will be a new look at the guy you know. If you are in my immediate friend group, you probably know this. Meet the new Josh!!

Let’s start with the stats. I’m 32. I live in Bayonne…

I have been trying to map out my week in advance. I have a hard time remembering even the simplest things sometimes. My friends can’t trust me to remember something for a couple hours let alone the week prior. This is one of the various ways I’m setting my intentions for my life. I like lists and use Google Keep to keep me organized.

Next week is all about finalizing things. I have two events,…

My morning has been this up and down roller coaster ride. And everything worked out. Then again, everything always works out. It’s the framing it in your mind that changes it from being a moment to an avalanche of negativity. I honestly did not frame things correctly to begin with, but with some help, I found my tools and climb the mountain avoiding more pitfalls on the way up.

I have become a…

It’s a wonderful thing to look in the mirror and just smile. And don’t think I’m just talking about looks here. You look into a mirror and see all that you are. In my case, I see the hours spent at the gym, I see the recently bought clothing that aligns with the writers, event planner, and bartender, I see all the words I’ve written, and I see my friends positive influence. It is the first time…

I am magic. I am energy. I am light. I am abundance. I am optimism. I am hope. I am positivity. Okay, so even I understand how hokey that sounds, but there’s a truth to it. You have this great power inside you to change the world, but many people hold themselves back. I was definitely one of those people, but I found my power and reached out to make a solid and abundantly bountiful path in the…

We always hear that you should be the change you wish to see in the world. As a writer, I remember being told to write the story I wanted to read. In both instances, it gives you this epic truth for your future. You make the reality in which you want to live.

This is hardly a concept that I have created or pulled out of thing air. The book, The Secret, tells all about this idea of putting out…

It’s weird thinking about how much I currently feel apart of culture here in Jersey City. I just sat down with the CEO of Hudson Pride to do a podcast. I just emailed the co-chair for JC Pride. I work four times of week at the new local gay bar. I spent the majority of time with my queer friends. It seems now like a lifetime ago when I didn’t feel like I was part of anything.

Growing up gay where…

Yesterday, I unknowingly spilled coffee all over my shorts. By the time I looked down at saw it, the coffee had already stained and there as those lovely brown spots trailing their way down my new pink shorts. I felt my face instantly flush at the potential ruination of my shorts. My friendly nicely offered to wash them and conclude that drama, but it always makes me wonder where does this…

Yesterday was the real start of something for me. I never saw myself as an advocate or a spokesperson for something other than myself. I tried my hand at it back at university which amounted to me realizing I cared more about myself than starting anything important to inspire the world. For the last few months, I’ve seared myself next to two advocates for queer rights. Both have been on the…

I live a good life, but I am only now setting myself up for true success. I have begun to look at myself and make the changes to provide myself with an amazing foundation to build on. Lately, I have been looking at the small habits that have been holding me back.

Small things tend to build into much larger ones. My friend always tells me that one place I’m missing is setting my intent for the day…

Today, I told my friend, Michael, that I felt like I needed to box up my room and start from scratch. He simply sent me a message that said I should clean up the clutter and prioritize my clothing since that has been something that brought on more self confidence. I was struck with a memory of writing a blog article specifically about changing my outlook, my lifestyle, and my look. I waned to do…

Time is an odd thing. Sometimes, it feels like things take forever to come, while others feel like they drag for hours. I always feel like I’m running and accomplishing things, but at the same instant, I have so much out there to do and only a limited amount of moments to do so. How does one go about getting everything they want done in their day, and build the stepping stones of an amazing…