What would you like to know?

I’ve been feeling crazy lately and having some issues. Not about my identity but really focusing on what I should be doing with my time. The messages you have sent the past few days have made me feel a lot better. I guess I didn’t realize the support I had. Thank you. You know who you are.

Tumblr can sometimes be like attending your own funeral and seeing who showed up. Some days, I can feel so ignored that it feels like no one would even notice if I died. I also notice that the more genuinely I show myself, the less interest you have. The more fantasy I share, and skin, the more attention. That’s the forum and I guess I knew that coming in. Sadly, I am a realist and people don’t always like reality. So, often I’m left alone with myself feeling like I’m still not quite like anyone else. I swear, I can feel left out of my own birthday party.

So many things resonate with me in this post. But this ^ most of all. Being or feeling alone can be dangerous. Can be. The mind wanders to dark places. We start comparing. Start feeling less than. For a long time I felt trapped in negative thoughts, people, ideas...but I realized I control my mind, it doesn’t control me. I control how I react to people or don’t react. I don’t have to be anything or act anyway I don’t want to.

If I may suggest some things that might help. Break from it, remove it, or change the reaction you have to it.

Whatever you feel is necessary, is necessary.