i don't think i'll ever find a good title for this blog

i am not okay!!

everytime I push myself to focus a bit more on work in a way that would bring me a bit more financial stability, both my body and my house get out of control. yes ok this time around I understand I should have been better about taking breaks. yes okay. I guess I deserve some of this punishment. but still, god. it's so exhausting. what a horrendous nauseating cycle I find myself in again and again and again. I focus a bit more on my work, bam. my house becomes a mess. i wake up SORE. I hate waking up in pain, yet it's such a common experience.

i have legit been seeking, like, actively seeking, actively trying to find balance between work, house maintenance, rest and leisure, and it's been fucking impossible. I'm so angry.

extra panel:

old piece that I still like a lot :)

I haven't gone by Rosie in quite some time now! I've gone by Roux (Rue) for a while and it's brought me a lot of joy and validation and euphoria; except it is a difficult name to spell out IRL, and I don't enjoy having to repeat it many times until people get it so after the initial honey moon period I started seeking out an alternative - - but tHEN,

this one time I was signing my newly acquired married name (Roux P.), and when I read it out loud, I realized it kind of sounded like "rupee", like the currency from the Zelda series. oops

so I decided to give it a try and started to introduce myself as Rupi and it's been a dream. it's an easy enough name for people to hear it correctly for the first time, short enough to be easily spelled AND, whenever some nerd identifies me as a nerd as well, I get to say "like in Zelda" and do a happy little dance when their faces light up in recognition. UwU so yeah!!! I'm Rupi!!! <3

Happy TADC day!!! I can't stop thinking about this cartoon!

Closeup and specs under the cut

Two different fanarts separated by one year and a completely revised opinion of the character at hand. 🤭 (the top one was made last night, the bottom one was made after episode 7 came out!)