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The warning signs can feel

Like they're butterflies...

I'm happy and proud to say that I'm a Bisexual and I'm not ashamed to say it. For years I had been mocked and been assumed that I was a homosexual. Even though at the time I was in process of figuring out who I was as a person.

When I was 8 I started having attractions with both male and female and thought that there was something wrong with my mental health. When I was 12 I found out that it wasnt anything to do with mental health and that it's a sexuality called Bisexuality, when I found out when my sister came out (only to come out as Gay 5 years later), that's when things started to come clear, but then started to come complicated. After my sister coming out as Bisexual, my parents started to rely on me that someday I can have a family with a wife. But the thing is Yeah sure Love can give me a women, but at the time I thought what if Love gives me a man instead Than What?

When I started to go Middle School and High School I began to shut it out due to being bullied and that if I try to be straight I can be normal. Well it didnt go as planned, after trying to cover it up I began to have Depression and Anxiety over the fact that I wasnt straight and that I was a Bisexual. When I was 16 I came out to my sister about it cause she was the only closest one (other than my Bestfriend that I'm still currently with) who understood what I was going through as a teenager. Sooner enough I came out my Bestfriend (who is now my girlfriend) but it kinda back fired, even though I was actually a Bisexual she started senceing that I was a Homosexual instead. After a while I started covering it up again in High School and saying that I was "Confused" and that i was "going through puberty" so i could be out of the clear and wont be judged and bullied so much. Even though people started seeing me as Straight person now that I was in a relationship with my friend who was a girl. I began to have severe depression where I started self-harming, having suicidal thoughts and actually tried attempting suicide for years, and not knowing why. Turns out it was actually the fact that I was pretending to be the person I wasnt, at the time i thought "Hey why don't I just say that I'm straight, cause I'm attracted to girls and just pretend that I'm not interested in guys" well it didnt worked out as I thought. After a while i started thinking. If people only excepted you to be the person that they want you to be, and not what YOU wanted to be than clearly they are not meant to be part of your life.

So I came out to my parents about it and my closest friends and honestly the love they had for me never changed and little weights on myself started loosing up. On June 15th 2019, I officially came out to MY family and they excepted me for ME and not for them. What I love about the picture on the Top Right, is the fact that when your a BiSexual your Love has no Gender Barriers, and you're free to Love who ever you want to without being ashamed about it, and express on how you want to Love someone.